I scrambled across the rocks, searching out their way down. When I found it, it was a treacherous limestone slide, broken by natural terraces. I dared it, clinging to handholds of gorse and long grass, and pebbles rattled away from me to the beach far below. Bruised and torn, I landed on the last stretch where the stone gave way to sand. I crept around the bastion of the cliff, picked a path beside its green-stained underside. They did not seem to hear me, and again I wondered if they were dead. When I was nearer, however, I saw them breathe, though their eyes were closed, their faces trancelike. I touched the shoulder of a woman, and she did not stir. I jumped across her body, and was inside the circle.
Sand splayed up from my feet. I looked at them, and they did not wake. I had again that feeling of a wild animal, an unthinking thing. I had profaned some secret holiness of theirs, but in my own need I did not care.
I ran and kneeled by the Book. My eyes dazzled with black darts of excitement. I flung open the cover.
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I cried out. I turned the pages, one after the other, in a frenzy. I could not believe what I saw, would not believe it. For the pages of the Book were blank.
Oh, yes, there had been writing, this much I could see, but the inks had faded. Now there were only faint smudges and marks here and there on the yellowness. And I could tell nothing from them.
I rocked my body, still kneeling by the Book, staring out at the black retreating sea.
I had realized quickly that this tribe was not the tribe Uasti had spoken of, the hill tribe of healers who had trained her. I had reasoned then that this book was not the one she had told me of but another, perhaps a copy, or even a different thing. Yet it bore the same name, was revered; it must be some relic of the Lost-some clue for me. I had hoped. And there was nothing here after all.
I got to my feet, leaving the Book open, the night breeze faintly riffling the empty pages. I jumped clear of the circle, and began to walk southward, up the beach. If not the Book, then the broken ruins of the cities. They at least must be here, for where else had the tribe discovered their relic?
I was tired, walking with my eyes half closed and my feet dragging. At the edge of the sea I left my footprints, the lace fans cold on my skin, smelling the ancient fish smell of the water. Sand gave way to pebble, and then again to altered, muddier sand. I threw my garland to the sea, and watched the waves carry it off, then bring it back to me.
It came to me, as I walked, how bitter the irony of the Book had been which had said: Herein the Truth. For it had a truth of its own in its bleached barrenness. What was truth except something which faded, lost its shape, grew unreadable and indistinguishable, at last a blank page for men to write on what they wished.
All pebbles and chunks of the white stone now underfoot. The night was sliding down behind the land on ruffled wings, and the bitter cold of the sea-dawn fastened on me. Most of the night I had walked under the towering giant’s pottery of cliffs, while the tide drew in and out, breathing. Once I had climbed to a higher place, out of the water’s reach, and slept there until the new silence of the waves slipping away again woke me, and I went on. I was hemmed in between the long flat water and the high irregular stoneworks.
A marigold sun rose from the sea, seeming to drip back its color into the silver breakers. Seabirds wheeled and cried.
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I rounded yet another cliff face, and found it was the last. Before me lay a wide and open sandy bay, scooped back to the terraces of low hills. Beyond the bay, far off, half painted on the morning mist, a tongue of land that poked out many miles into the water. At first I did not see the white shapes scattered across the hills of the bay and the tongue of land. But the sun pointed with a chilly orange finger, and I realized I had found my dream’s cities with the dawn.
I walked into the cold water of the bay, following the curve of it, yet not going any closer. A kind of extra sense, all that was left to me of my Power, told me that this place was very old, older than Ezlann, the Dark City, older even than Kee-ool, and not only ancient, but unlived-in, unvisited. Some atmospheric barrier surrounded it that kept men away The far-off ancestors of the black tribe had come once-and they had found the Book. Perhaps others had come-briefly, yet never staying long enough to leave any imprint on the cold stones. And whoever had come and gone, the cities had forgotten them. I thought of those cities of Sea’s Edge in the far south, that last alliance Vazkor had planned to conquer. Had they also fallen into decay? Would his armies, if they had come there, have met with another such ancient indifference?
A sound broke harsh behind me, making me spin, wide eyed, to see what demon-guardian the ruins had woken against me.
Three tall black men stood waiting in the surf, the wind lifting their long hair, spears in their right hands, knives at their narrow hips. Their leader, the tallest, spoke again:
“To men and women of our krarl comes the need, sometimes, to seek this place. All who feel such need come here. Was there such a need in you?”
“Yes,” I said, “and a need to be alone here, too.”
“Not good to be alone here,” the warrior said gently. “There are strange things in the cities by day, and stranger things, with the night.”
The cold wind nicked my skin. I shivered.
“I am Fethlin,” he said.
“I am Wexl,” “I, Peyuan,” the second and third men said.
Again the magic number of three had repeated itself-my guard, once more, stood waiting to serve me, having followed me through the night-and I had not even sensed their presence. But this time I did not want this security. No more men should die for me like fools.
“Go back,” I said. “Go back to Qwenex and your people.
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I profaned your trance-circle on the beach. I opened the golden Book-I broke the hearth-bond and the guest-promise of your krarl. Spit on me, and go back.”
Fethlin looked at me, and he said, ‘That was your need.”
“You know nothing of my need,” I shouted at him. “Go back-go away-I will have no more butchered lives strung around my neck!”
I stopped shouting, and the wind filled the silence, as it had filled all the silences in this bay for thousands of years.
“If you enter the city, we will follow you,” Fethlin said. “That is how it must be. Your need is our need. Only our own gods understand why.”
There seemed something completely final in that they had recognized, as Maggur and his would not, as Mazlek and his only partly would, that they were bound to me by some motiveless and insane unnatural law.
“Very well, then,” I said. “None of us has a choice. I am sorry, for you will die.”
I turned my back, and began to walk inland toward the curved scoop of the bay, ignoring that they came after me.
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Farther south, a causeway led from the sea, rising clear of the beach. Perhaps there had been a harbor there, and a watch beacon; nothing remained. Beyond the sand a grassy slope, tangled with tough dark green trees, and, climbing up between these, I found the first ruin of a road, once forty, fifty feet across, set with those great slabs I remembered from the Lforn Kl Javhovor; there was not much left of it now. Paving had been heaved aside by growing things. Lichens and weeds wove together like a tapestry, a pall to cover something dead.
Then there was a green open stretch where the road lost itself entirely and reappeared twenty feet away, dividing a broken wall, flanked on either side by the bases of pillars. They had been very tall once, now they seemed like the melted-down stubs of candles. When I reached them, I put out my hands to touch the blurred carving. Nothing stirred inside me or around me. Yet this had been a phoenix gate, long ago.
When I went through it, and stood inside the city, I had to glance back quickly. Behind the figures of the warriors I saw