‘I beg pardon,’ he said, ‘I should have shifted my clothes, but it seems that my chest was shattered – destroyed entirely.’
‘I can let you have a shirt and some breeches,’ said Captain Ferris. ‘We are much of a size.’ Stephen bowed.
‘You have been lending the French surgeons a hand?’ said Jack.
‘Just so.’
‘Was there a great deal to do?’ asked Captain Ferris.
‘About a hundred killed and a hundred wounded,’ said Stephen.
‘We had seventy-five and fifty-two,’ said Captain Ferris.
‘You belong to the Hannibal, sir?’ asked Stephen.
‘I did, sir,’ said Captain Ferris. ‘I struck my colours,’ he said in a wondering tone and at once began to sob, staring open-eyed at them – at one and then at the other.
‘Captain Ferris,’ said Stephen, ‘pray tell me, how many mates has your surgeon? And have they all their instruments? I am going down to the convent to see your wounded as soon as I have had a bite, and I dispose of two or three sets.’
‘Two mates, sir,’ said Captain Ferris. ‘As for their instruments I fear I cannot say. It is good in you, sir – most Christian – let me fetch you this shirt and breeches – you must be damned uncomfortable.’ He came back with a bundle of clean clothes wrapped in a dressing-gown, suggested that Dr Maturin might operate in the gown, as he had seen done after the First of June, when there was a similar shortage of clean linen. And during their odd, scrappy meal, brought to them by staring, pitiful maidservants, with red and yellow sentries guarding the door, he said, ‘After you have looked to my poor fellows, Dr Maturin – if you have any benevolence left after you have looked to them, I say, it would be a charitable act to prescribe me something in the poppy or mandragora line. I was strangely upset today, I must confess, and I need what is it? The knitting up of ravelled care? And what is more, since we are likely to be exchanged in a few days, I shall have a court-martial on top of it all.’
‘Oh, as for that, sir,’ cried Jack, throwing himself back in his chair, ‘you cannot possibly have any misgivings – never was a clearer case of -‘Don’t you be so sure, young man,’
said Captain Ferris.
‘Any court-martial is a perilous thing, whether you are in the right or the wrong – justice has nothing much to do with it. Remember poor Vincent of the Weymouth: remember Byng – shot for an error of judgment and for being unpopular with the mob. And think of the state of feeling in Gibraltar and at home just now – six ships of the line beaten off by three French, and one taken – a defeat, and the Hannibal taken.’
This degree of apprehension in Captain Ferris seemed to Jack a kind of wound, the result of lying hard aground under the fire of three shore-batteries, a ship of the line and a dozen heavy gun-boats, and of being terribly hammered for hours, dismasted and helpless. The same thought, in a slightly different shape, occurred to Stephen. ‘What is this trial of which he speaks?’ he asked later. ‘Is it factual, or imaginary?’
‘Oh, it is factual enough,’ said Jack.
‘But he has done nothing amiss, surely? No one can pretend he ran away or did not fight as hard as ever he could.’
‘But he lost his ship. Every captain of a King’s ship that is lost must stand his trial at courtmartial.’
‘I see. A mere formality in his case, no doubt.’
‘In his case, yes,’ said Jack. ‘His anxiety is unfounded
– a sort of waking nightmare, I take it.’
But the next day, when he went down with Mr Daiziel to see the Sophie’s crew in their disaffected church and to
tell them of the flag of truce from the Rock, it seemed to him a little more reasonable – less of a sick fantasy. He told the Sophies that both they and the Hannibals were to be exchanged – that they should be in Gibraltar for dinner
– dried peas and salt horse for dinner, no more of these foreign messes – and although he smiled and waved his hat at the roaring cheers that greeted his news, there was a black shadow in the back of his mind.
The shadow deepened as be crossed the bay in the Caesar’s barge; it deepened as he waited in the antechamber to report himself to the Admiral. Sometimes he sat and sometimes he walked up and down the room, talking to other officers as people with urgent business were admitted by the secretary. He was surprised to receive so many congratulations on the Cacafuego action – it seemed so long ago now as almost to belong to another life. But the congratulations (though both generous and kind) were a little on the cursory side, for the atmosphere in Gibraltar was one of severe and general condemnation, dark depression, strict attention to arduous work, and a sterile wrangling about what ought to have been done.
When at last he was received he found Sir James almost as old and changed as Captain Ferris; the Admiral’s strange, heavy-lidded eyes looked at him virtually without expression as he made his report; there was not a word of interruption, not a hint of praise or blame, and this made Jack so uneasy that if it had not been for a list of heads he had written on a card that he kept in the palm of his hand, like a schoolboy, he would have deviated into rambling explanations and excuses. The Admiral was obviously very tired, but his quick mind extracted the necessary facts and he noted them down on a slip of paper. ‘What do you make of the state of the French ships, Captain Aubrey?’ he asked.
‘The Desaix is now afloat, sir, and pretty sound; so is the Indomptable. I do not know about the Formidable and Hannibal, but there is no question of their being bilged; and in Algeciras the rumour is that Admiral Linois sent three officers to Cadiz yesterday and another early this morning to beg the Spaniards and Frenchmen there to come round and fetch him out.’
Admiral Saumarez put his hand to his forehead. He had honestly believed they would never float again, and he had said as much in his report. ‘Well, thank you, Captain Aubrey,’ he said, after a moment, and Jack stood up. ‘I see you are wearing your sword,’
observed the Admiral.
‘Yes, sir. The French captain was good enough to give it back to me.’
‘Very handsome in him, though I am sure the compliment was quite deserved; and I have little doubt the court-martial will do the same. But, you know, it is not quite etiquette to ship it until then: we will arrange your business as soon as possible – poor Ferris will have to go home, of course, but we can see to you here. You are only on parole, I believe?’
‘Yes, sir: waiting for an exchange.’
‘What a sad bore. I could have done with your help -the squadron is in such a state. . .
Well, good day to you, Captain Aubrey,’ he said, with a hint of a smile, or at least a lightening in his expression. ‘As you know, of course, you are under nominal arrest, so pray be discreet.’
He had known it perfectly well, of course, in theory; but the actual words were a blow to his heart, and he walked through the crowded, busy streets of Gibraltar in a state of quite remarkable unhappiness. When he reached the house where he was staying, he unbuckled his sword, made an ungainly parcel of it and sent it down to the Admiral’s secretary with a note. Then he went for a walk, feeling strangely naked and unwilling to be seen.
The officers of the Hannibal and the Sophie were on parole: that is to say, until they were exchanged for French prisoners of equal rank they were bound in honour to do nothing against France or Spain – they were merely prisoners in more agreeable surroundings.
The days that followed were singularly miserable and
lonely – lonely, although he sometimes walked with Captain Ferris, sometimes with his own midshipmen and sometimes with Mr Daiziel and his dog. It was strange and unnatural to be cut off from the life of the port and the squadron at such a moment as this, when every able-bodied man and a good many who should never have got out of their beds at all, were working furiously to repair their ships – an active hive, an ant-hill down below, and up here on these heights, on the thin grass and the bare rock between the Moorish wall and the tower above Monkey’s Cove, solitary self-communing, doubt, reproach and anxiety. He had looked through all the Gazettes, of course, and there was nothing about either the Sophie’s triumph or her disaster: one or two garbled accounts in the newspapers and a paragraph in the Gentleman’s Magazine that made it seem like a surprise attack, that was all. As many as a dozen promotions in the Gazettes, but none for him or Pullings and it was a fair bet that the news of the Sophie’s capture had reached London at about the same time as that of the Cacafuego. If not before: for the good news (supposing it to have been lost – supposing it to have been in the bag he himself sank in ninety fathoms off Cape Roig) could only have come in a dispatch from Lord Keith, far up the Mediterranean, among the Turks. So there could not be any promotion now until after the court-martial – no such thing as the promotion of prisoners, ever. And what if the trial went wrong? His conscience was very far from being perfectly easy. If Harte had meant