Yes. He was doing what he had been made to do. The place and the circumstances didn’t matter. The other thing I saw was Dean Stanton’s red, swelling face. He was dying in front of my eyes. Wharton saw the gun and turned Dean toward it, so that I’d almost certainly have to hit one to hit the other. From over Dean’s shoulder, one blazing blue eye dared me to shoot.
The Green Mile
Part Three:
Coffey’s Hands
1.
Looking back through what I’ve written, I see that I called Georgia Pines, where I now live, a nursing home. The folks who run the place wouldn’t be very happy with that! According to the brochures they keep in the lobby and send out to prospective clients, its a “State-of-the-art retirement complex for the elderly.” It even has a Resource Center – the brochure says so. The folks who have to live here (the brochure doesn’t call us “inmates,” but sometimes I do) just call it the TV room.
Folks think I’m stand-offy because I don’t go down to the TV room much in the day, but it’s the programs I can’t stand, not the folks. Oprah, Ricki Lake, Carnie Wilson, Rolanda – the world is falling down around our ears, and all these people care for is talking about fucking to women in short skirts and men with their shirts hanging open. Well, hell – judge not, lest ye be judged, the Bible says, so I’ll get down off my soapbox. It’s just that if I wanted to spend time with trailer trash, I’d move two miles down to the Happy Wheels Motor Court, where the police cars always seem to be headed on Friday and Saturday nights with their sirens screaming and their blue lights flashing. My special friend, Elaine Connelly, feels the same
way. Elaine is eighty, tall and slim, still erect and clear-eyed, very intelligent and refined. She walks very slowly because there’s something wrong with her hips, and I know that the arthritis in her hands gives her terrible misery, but she has a beautiful long neck – a swan neck, almost – and long, pretty hair that falls to her shoulders when she lets it down.
Best of all, she doesn’t think I’m peculiar, or stand-offy. We spend a lot of time together, Elaine and I. If I hadn’t reached such a grotesque age, I suppose I might speak of her as my ladyfriend. Still, having a special friend – just that – is not so bad, and in some ways, it’s even better. A lot of the problems and heartaches that go with being boyfriend and girlfriend have simply burned out of us. And although I know that no one under the age of, say, fifty would believe this, sometimes the embers are better than the campfire. It’s strange, but it’s true.
So I don’t watch TV during the day. Sometimes I walk; sometimes I read; mostly what I’ve been doing for the last month or so is writing this memoir among the plants in the solarium. I think there’s more oxygen in that room, and it helps the old memory. It beats the hell out of Geraldo Rivera, I can tell you that.
But when I can’t sleep, I sometimes creep downstairs and put on the television. There’s no Home Box Office or anything at Georgia Pines – I guess that’s a resource just a wee bit too expensive for our Resource Center – but we have the basic cable services, and that means we have the American Movie Channel. That’s the one (just in case you don’t have the basic cable services yourself) where most of the films are in black and white and none of the women take their clothes off. For an old fart like me, that’s sort of soothing. There have been a good many nights when I’ve slipped right off to sleep on the ugly green sofa in front of the TV while Francis the Talking Mule once more pulls Donald O’Connor’s skillet out of the fire, or John Wayne cleans up Dodge, or Jimmy Cagney calls someone a dirty rat and then pulls a gun. Some of them are movies I saw with my wife, Janice (not just my ladyfriend but my best friend), and they calm me. The clothes they wear, the way they walk and talk, even the music on the soundtrack – all those things calm me. They remind me, I suppose, of when I was a man still walking on the skin of the world, instead of a moth-eaten relic mouldering away in an old folks’ home where many of the residents wear diapers and rubber pants.