AFTER WALKING FOR A while, he began to come out of this unhappy daze and take
some notice of his surroundings. He was standing on the corner of Lexington Avenue and.
Fifty-fourth Street with no memory at all of how he had come to be there. He noticed for
the first time that it was an absolutely gorgeous morning. May 9th, the day this madness
had started, had been pretty, but today was ten times better—that day, perhaps, when
spring looks around herself and sees summer standing nearby, strong and handsome and
with a cocky grin on his tanned face. The sun shone brightly off the glass walls of the
midtown buildings; the shadow of each pedestrian was black and crisp. The sky overhead
was a clear and blameless blue, dotted here and there with plump foul-weather clouds.
Down the street, two businessmen in expensive, well-cut suits were standing at a board
wall which had been erected around a construction site. They were laughing and passing
something back and forth. Jake walked in their direction, curious, and as he drew closer he
saw that the two businessmen were playing tic-tac-toe on the wall, using an expensive
Mark Cross pen to draw the grids and make the X’s and O’s. Jake thought this was a
complete gas. As he approached, one of them made an O in the upper right-hand corner of
the grid and then slashed a diagonal line through the middle.
“Skunked again!” his friend said. Then this man, who looked like a high-powered
executive or lawyer or big-time stockbroker, took the Mark Cross pen and drew another
grid.
The first businessman, the winner, glanced to his left and saw Jake. He smiled. “Some day,
huh, kid?”
“It sure is,” Jake said, delighted to find he meant every word.
“Too nice for school, huh?”
This time Jake actually laughed. Piper School, where you had Outs instead of lunch and
where you sometimes stepped out but never had to take a crap, suddenly seemed far away
and not at all important. “You know it.”
“You want a game? Billy here couldn’t beat me at this when we were in the fifth grade, and
he still can’t.’
“Leave the kid alone,” the second businessman said, holding out the Mark Cross pen.
“This time you’re history.” He winked at Jake, and Jake amazed himself by winking back.
He walked on, leaving the men to their game. The sense that something totally wonderful
was going to happen— had perhaps already begun to happen—continued to grow, and his
feet no longer seemed to be quite touching the pavement.
The WALK light on the corner came on, and he began to cross Lexington Avenue. He
stopped in the middle of the street so suddenly that a messenger-boy on a ten-speed bike
almost ran him down. It was a beautiful spring day—agreed. But that wasn’t why he felt so
good, so suddenly aware of everything that was going on around him, so sure that some
great thing was about to occur.
The voices had stopped.
They weren’t gone for good—he somehow knew this—but for the time being they had
stopped. Why?
Jake suddenly thought of two men arguing in a room. They sit facing each other over a
table, jawing at each other with increasing bitterness. After a while they begin to lean
toward each other, thrusting their faces pugnaciously forward, bathing each other with a
fine mist of outraged spittle. Soon they will come to blows. But before that can happen,
they hear a steady thumping noise—the sound of a bass drum—and then a jaunty flourish
of brass. The two men stop arguing and look at each other, puzzled.
What’s that? one asks.
Dunno, the other replies. Sounds like a parade.
They rush to the window and it is a parade—a uniformed band marching in lock-step with
the sun blazing off their horns, pretty majo- rettes twirling batons and strutting their long,
tanned legs, convertibles decked with flowers and filled with waving celebrities.
The two men stare out the window, their quarrel forgotten. They will undoubtedly return
to it, but for the time being they stand together like the best of friends, shoulder to shoulder,
watching as the parade goes by—
10
A HORN BLARED, STARTLING Jake out of this story, which was as vivid as a powerful
dream. He realized he was still standing in the middle of Lexington, and the light had
changed. He looked around wildly, expecting to see the blue Cadillac bearing down on him,
but the guy who had tooted his horn was sitting behind the wheel of a yellow Mustang
convert- ible and grinning at him. It was as if everyone in New York had gotten a whiff of
happy-gas today.
Jake waved at the guy and sprinted to the other side of the street. The guy in the Mustang
twirled a finger around his ear to indicate that Jake was crazy, then waved back and drove
on.
For a moment Jake simply stood on the far corner, face turned up to the May sunshine,
smiling, digging the day. He supposed prisoners condemned to die in the electric chair
must feel this way when they learn they have been granted a temporary reprieve.
The voices were still.
The question was, what was the parade which had temporarily diverted their attention?
Was it just the uncommon beauty of this spring morning?
Jake didn’t think that was all. He didn’t think so because that sensa- tion of knowing was
creeping over him and through him again, the one which had taken possession of him three
weeks ago, as he approached the corner of Fifth and Forty-sixth. But on May 9th, it had
been a feeling of impending doom. Today it was a feeling of radiance, a sense of goodness
and anticipation. It was as if … as if …
White. This was the word that came to him, and it clanged in his mind with clear and
unquestionable lightness.
“It’s the White!” he exclaimed aloud. “The coming of the White!”
He walked on down Fifty-fourth Street, and as he reached the cor- ner of Second and
Fifty-fourth, he once more passed under the umbrella of ka-tet.
11
HE TURNED RIGHT, THEN stopped, turned, and retraced his steps to the corner. He
needed to walk down Second Avenue now, yes, that was unquestionably correct, but this
was the wrong side again. When the light changed, he hurried across the street and turned
right again. That feeling, that sense of
(Whiteness)
rightness, grew steadily stronger. He felt half-mad with joy and relief. He was going to be
okay. This time there was no mistake. He felt sure that he would soon begin to see people
he recognized, as he had recognized the fat lady and the pretzel vendor, and they would be
doing things he remembered in advance.
Instead, he came to the bookstore.
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THE MANHATTAN RESTAURANT OF THE MIND, the sign painted in the window
read. Jake went to the d(x>r. There was a chalkboard hung there; it looked like the kind you
saw on the wall in diners and lunchrooms.
TODAY’S SPECIALS
From Florida! Fresh-Broiled John D. MacDonald Hardcovers 3 for $2.50 Paperbacks 9 for
$5.00
From Mississippi! Pan-Fried William Faulkner Hardcovers Market Price Vintage Library
Paperbacks 75$ each
From California! Hard-Boiled Raymond Chandler Hardcovers Market Price Paperbacks 7
for $5.00
FEED YOUR NEED TO READ
Jake went in, aware that he had, for the first time in three weeks, opened a door without
hoping madly to find another world on the other side. A bell jingled overhead. The mild,
spicy smell of old books hit him, and the smell was somehow like coming home.
The restaurant motif continued inside. Although the walls were lined with shelves of books, a fountain-style counter bisected the room. On Jake’s side of the counter were a
number of small tables with wire-backed Malt Shoppe chairs. Each table had been
arranged to display the day’s specials: Travis McGee novels by John D. Mac-Donald,
Philip Marlowe novels by Raymond Chandler, Snopes novels by William Faulkner. A
small sign on the Faulkner table said: Some rare 1st eds available—pls ask. Another sign,
this one on the counter, read simply: BROWSE! A couple of customers were doing just
that. They sat at the counter, drinking coffee and reading. Jake thought this was without a
doubt the best bookstore he’d ever been in.
The question was, why was he here? Was it luck, or was it part of that soft, insistent feeling
that he was following a trail—a land of force-beam—that had been left for him to find?
He glanced at the display on a small table to his left and knew the answer.
13
IT WAS A DISPLAY of children’s books. There wasn’t much room on the table, so there
were only about a dozen of them—Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, The Hobbit, Tom
Sawyer, things like that. Jake had been attracted by a storybook obviously meant for very