He offered me the padded bench, unfolding the small table between us. A single leg flopped down to give it support. I was effectively hemmed in and could only get comfortable by turning sideways. Greg took the canvas chair, tilting back so he could study me while I studied him. He looked a lot like Laurence Fife — lank dark-brown hair, a square-cut smooth face that was clean-shaven, dark eyes, bold dark brows, square chin. He looked younger than twenty-five but his smile had the same touch of arrogance that I remembered from his father. He was darkly tanned, cheekbones tinted with sunburn. His shoulders were wide, his body lean, his feet bare. He wore a red cotton turtleneck and cutoffs that were ragged at the bottom, nearly ruffled with bleached threads. He took a sip of beer.
“You think I look like him?”
“Yes,” I said. “Does that suit you?”
Greg shrugged. “Doesn’t matter much at this point,” he said. “We weren’t anything alike.”
“How so?”
“God,” he said facetiously, “let’s just skip over the preliminaries and get right down to the personal stuff, why don’t we.”
I smiled. “I’m not very polite.”
“Neither am I,” he said.
“So what do you want to talk about first? The weather?”
“Skip it,” he said. “I know what you’re here for so get to the point.”
“You remember much about that time in your life?”
“Not if I can help it.”
“Except for shrinks,” I suggested.
“I did that to please my mom,” he said and then smiled briefly as though he recognized the fact that the phrase “my mom” sounded too boyish for him at his age.
“I worked for your father a couple of times,” I said.
He began to peel a strip of label with his thumbnail, feigning disinterest. I wondered what he’d heard about his father and I decided, on impulse, not to give Laurence Fife any posthumous pats lest I sound condescending or insincere.
I said, “I’ve heard he was a real bastard.”
“No shit,” Greg said.
I shrugged. “I didn’t think he was that bad myself. He was straight with me. I suspect he was a complicated man and I don’t think many people got close to him.”
“Did you?”
“No,” I said. I shifted slightly in my seat. “How’d you feel about Nikki?”
“Not that good.”
I smiled. “Try to keep your answers short so I can get ‘em on one line,” I said. He didn’t bite. I drank beer for a while, then rested my chin on my fist. Sometimes I just really do get sick of trying to coax information out of people who aren’t in the mood. “Why don’t you fold up the table and we’ll go outside,” I said.
“What for?”
“So I can get some fresh air, fucker, what do you think?”
He chuckled suddenly and moved his long legs out of my way as I slid out of the seat.
I’d surprised myself, getting snappish with him, but I get tired of people being cute or sullen or cautious or tight-lipped. I wanted straight answers and a lot of them too. And I wanted a relationship based, just once, on some sort of mutual exchange instead of me always having to connive and manipulate. I walked aimlessly, Greg at my heels, trying to cool myself down. It wasn’t his fault, I knew, and I’m suspicious of myself anyway when I’m feeling righteous and misunderstood.
“Sorry I snapped at you,” I said.
The trailer was about two hundred yards from the water’s edge. There were several larger trailers nearby, all facing the sea, like a queer band of animals that had crept down to the water to drink. I pulled off my tennis shoes and tied the laces together, banging them around my neck. The Salton Sea has a mild to nonexistent surf, like an ocean that has been totally tamed. There is no vegetation visible in the water and few if any fish. It gives the shore a curious air, as though the tides had been brought to heel, becalmed, the life forms leeched away. What remains is familiar but subtly changed, like a glimpse into the future where certain laws of nature have been altered by the passage of time. I placed a drop of water on my tongue. The taste of salt was fierce. “Is this ocean water?”
Greg smiled, apparently unperturbed by my former outburst. In fact he seemed friendlier. “You want a lesson in geology,” he said, “I’ll give you one.” It was the first time his voice had contained any sign of enthusiasm.
“Sure, why not?”
He picked up a rock, using it like a piece of chalk as he drew a crude map in the wet sand. “This is the California coastline and this is Baja. Over here is Mexico. Right at the tip of the Gulf of California is Yuma-southeast of here, more or less. This is us here,” he said, pointing. “The Colorado River curves right up through here and then up past Las Vegas. That’s Hoover Dam. Then it goes up here and over into Utah and then to Colorado, but we can skip that part. Now,” he said, tossing the rock aside. He began to draw with his fingertip, glancing up at me to see if I was listening. “This area in here is called the Salton Sink. Two hundred and seventy-three feet below sea level-something like that. If it weren’t for the Colorado River forming a kind of natural dam right here, all this water from the Gulf of California would have spilled into the Salton Sink years ago — all the way up to Indio. God, that gives me the willies when I think of it. Anyway, the Salton Sea came from the Colorado River itself, so it was originally fresh water. Overflowed in 1905 — the river did, billions of gallons of water pouring in over a two-year period. It was finally controlled with rock and brush dams. The salt, which has been gradually saturating the water, was probably from prehistoric times when all of this area was submerged.” He stood up, brushing wet sand off his hands, apparently satisfied with his summary.
We began to walk — he on the beach side, me scuffling my bare feet through the shallows. He tucked his hands in his back pockets. “Sorry if I was a pissant before,” he said lightly, “I’ve been in a bad mood with my boat out of the water. I was never meant to be on land.”
“You sure snapped out of it quick enough,” I remarked.
“Because you said ‘fuck.’ I always get tickled when women say that. Especially you. It was the last thing I expected to come out of your mouth.”
“What do you do down here?” I asked. “Fish?”
“Some. Mostly sail. Read. Drink beer. Hang out.”
“I’d go nuts.”
Greg shrugged. “I started out nuts so I’m getting sane.”
“Not really ‘nuts,”’ I said.
“Not certifiable, no.”
“What kind then?”
“Don’t make me tell that stuff,” he said mildly. “I get bored with myself. Ask me something else. Three questions. Like magic wishes.”
“If I have to limit myself to three questions, I might as well go home,” I said, but basically I was willing to play the game. I looked over at him. He was looking less like his father and more like himself. “What do you remember from the period just before he died?”
“You asked me that before.”
“Yeah, and that’s just about the time you turned all surly on me. I’ll tell you why I’m asking. Maybe that will help. I’d like to reconstruct the events just before his death. Maybe as far back as the last six months before he was killed. I mean, maybe he was involved in some kind of legal hassle — a personal feud. Maybe he fought with a neighbor over a property line. Somebody did it, and there had to be a sequence of events.
“I wouldn’t know about that stuff,” he said. “I can tell you just family events, but the other I wouldn’t know.”
“That’s okay.”
“We came down here that fall. That’s one of the reasons I came back.”
I wanted to prompt him with another question but I was afraid he’d count it as one of my three so I kept my mouth shut. He went on.
“I was seventeen. God, I was such a jerk and I thought my father was so impossibly perfect. I didn’t know what he expected of me but I figured I’d never measure up, so I was a pissant. He was supercritical and he hurt my feelings a lot, but I’d just stonewall him. Half the time I hung on his every word and the rest of the time I hated his guts. So when he died, I lost the chance to square myself with him. I mean, for all time, you know? That’s it. I’ve got no way to take care of any old business with him, so I’m stuck. I figured if I was stuck in time, I might as well be stuck in place, too, so that’s why I came here. We were out on the beach once and he had to go back to the car for something and I remember watching him walk. Just looking at him. He had his head bent and he was probably thinking about anything but me. I felt like I should call him back, really tell him how much I loved him, but of course I didn’t. So that’s the way I remember him. That whole business really screwed me up.”