body else. McCoy was the littlest one in the company, a waspwaist doll barely five feet high. “They’ve got the airco going. It can’t be long now.” “I wish I, was a big, slab of, meat like, you.” I was glad she wasn’t. 6 We had our first casualty on the third day, learning how to dig holes. With such large amounts of energy stored in a soldier’s weapons, itwouldn’t be practical forhimtohackouta hole in the frozen ground with the conventional pick and shovel. Still, you can launch grenades all day and get nothing but shallow depressions-so the usual method is to bore a hole in the ground with the hand laser, drop a timed charge in after it’s cooled down and, ideally, fill the hole with stuff. Of course, there’s not much loose rock on Charon, unless you’ve already blown a hole nearby. The only difficult thing about the procedure is in getting away. To be safe, we were told, you’ve got to either be behind something really solid, or be at least a hundred meters away. You’ve got about three minutes after setting the charge, but you can’t just sprint away. Not safely, not on Charon. The accident happened when we were making a really deep hole, the kind you want for a large underground bunker. For this, we had to blow a hole, then climb down to the bottom of the crater and repeat the procedure again and again until the hole was deep enough. Inside the crater we used charges with a five-minute delay, but it hardly seemed enough time-you really had to go it slow, picking your way up the crater’s edge. Just about everybody had blown a double hole; everybody but me and three others. I guess we were the only ones paying really close attention when Bovanovitch got into trouble. All of us were a good two hundred meters away. With my image converter turned up to about foily power, I watched her disappear over the rim of the crater. After that, I could only listen in on her conversation with Cortez. 23 joe narneman “I’m on the bottom, Sergeant.” Normal radio procedure was suspended for maneuvers like this; nobody but the trainee and Cortez was allowed to broadcast “Okay, move to the center and clear out the rubble. Take your time. No rush until you pull the pin.” “Sure, Sergeant.” We could hear small echoes of rocks clattering, sound conduction through her boots. She didn’t say anything for several minutes. “Found bottom.” She sounded a little out of breath. “Ice or rock?” “Oh, it’s rock, Sergeant The greenish stuff.” “Use a low setting, then. One point two, dispersion four.” “God dam it, Sergeant, that’ll take forever.” “Yeah, but that stuff’s got hydrated crystals in it-heat it up too fast and you might make it fracture. And we’d Just have to leave you there, girl. Dead and bloody.” “Okay, one point two dee four.” The inside edge of the crater flickered red with reflected laser light. “When you get about half a meter deep, squeeze it up to dee two.” “Roger.” It took her exactly seventeen minutes, three of them at dispersion two. I could imagine how tired her shooting arm was. “Now rest for a few minutes. When the bottom of the hole stops glowing, arm the charge and drop it in. Then walk out, understand? You’ll have plenty of time.” “I understand, Sergeant. Walk out.” She sounded nervous. Well, you don’t often have to tiptoe away from a twenty-microton tachyon bomb. We listened to her reathing for a few minutes. “Here goes.” Faint slithering sound, the bomb sliding ~Iown. “Slow and easy now. You’ve got five minutes.” “Y-yeah. Five.” Her footsteps started out slow and regLilar. Then, after she started climbing the side, the sounds were less regular, maybe a little frantic. And with four minutes to go- “Shit” A loud scraping noise, then clatters and bumps. “Shit-shit.” THE FOREVER WAR 25 “What’s wrong, private?” “Oh, shit.” Silence. “Shit!” “Private, you don’t wanna get shot, you tell me what’s wrong!” “I. . . shit, I’m stuck. Fucken rockslide. . . shit. . . . DO SOMETHiNG! I can’t move, shit I can’t move I, I-” “Shut up! How deep?” “Can’t move my, shit, my fucken legs. HELP ME-” “Then goddainmit use your arms-push! You can move a ton with each hand.” Three minutes. She stopped cussing and started to mumble, in Russian, I guess, a low monotone. She was panting, and you could hear rocks tumbling away. “I’m free.” Two minutes. “Go as fast as you can.” Cortez’s voice was fiat, emotionless. At ninety seconds she appeared, crawling over the rim. “Run, girl. . . . You better run.” She ran five or six steps md fell, skidded a few meters and got back up, running; fell again, got up again- It looked as though she was going pretty fast, but she had only covered about thirty meters when Cortez said, “All tight, Bovanovitch, get down on your stomach and lie still.” Ten seconds, but she didn’t hear or she wanted to get just a little more distance, and she kept running, careless leaping strides, and at the high point of one leap there was a flash and a rumble, and something big hit her below the neck, and her headless body spun off end over end through space, trailing a red-black spiral of flash-frozen blood that settled gracefully to the ground, a path of crystal powder that nobody disturbed while we gathered rocks to cover the juiceless thing at the end of it. That night Cortez didn’t lecture us, didn’t even show up for night-chop. We were all very polite to each other and nobody was afraid to talk about it.. I sacked with Rogers-everybody sacked with a good friend-but all she wanted to do was cry, and she cried so long and so hard that she got me doing it, too. 7 “Fire team A-move out!” The twelve of us advanced in a ragged line toward the simulated bunker. It was about a kilometer away, across a carefully prepared obstacle course. We could move pretty fast, since all of the ice had been cleared from the field, but even with ten days’ experience we weren’t ready to do more than an easy jog. I carried a grenade launcher loaded with tenth-microton practice grenades. Everybody had their laser-fingers set at a point oh eight dee one, not much more than a flashlight. This was a simulated attack-the bunker and its robot defender cost too much to use once and be thrown away. “Team B, follow. Team leaders, take over.” We approached a clump of boulders at about the halfway mark, and Potter, my team leader, said, “Stop and cover.” We clustered behind the rocks and waited for Team B. Barely visible in their blackened suits, the dozen men find women whispered by us. As soon as they were clear, they jogged left, out of our line of sight. “Fire!” Red circles of light danced a half-klick downrange, where the bunker was just visible. Five hundred meters was the limit for these practice grenades; but I might luck out, so I lined the launcher up on the image of the bunker, held it at a forty-five degree angle and popped off a salvo of three. Return fire from the bunker started before my grenades even landed. Its automatic lasers were no more powerful than the ones we were using, but a direct hit would deactivate your image converter, leaving you blind. It was setting down a random field of fire, not even coming close to the boulders we were hiding behind. Three magnesi urn-bright flashes blinked simultaneously about thirty meters Short of the bunker. “Mandella! I thought you were supposed to he good with that thing.” 26 ~I LL1~ 1 ‘.JJ~1a V I~1~ VT Itj~ h.1 “Damn it, Potter-it only throws half a klick. Once we get closer, I’ll lay ’em right on top, every time.” “Sure you will.” I didn’t say anything. She wouldn’t be team leader forever. Besides, she hadn’t been such a bad girl before the power went to her head. Since the grenadier is the assistant team leader, I was slaved into Potter’s radio and could hear B team talk to her. “Potter, this is Freeman. Losses?” “Potter here-no, looks like they were concentrating on you.” “Yeah, we lost three. Right now we’re in a depression about eighty, a hundred meters down from you. We can give cover whenever you’re ready.” “Okay, start.” Soft click: “A team, follow me.” She slid out from behind the rock and turned on the faint pink beacon beneath her powerpack. I turned on mine and moved out to run alongside of her, and the rest of the team fanned out in a trailing wedge. Nobody fired while A team laid down a cover for us. All I could hear was Potter’s breathing and the soft crunch-crunch of my boots. Couldn’t see much of anything, SO I tongued the image converter up to a log two intensification. That made the image kind of blurry but adequately bright. Looked like the bunker had B team pretty well pinned down; they were getting quite a roasting. All of their return fire was laser. They must have lost their grenadier. “Potter, this is Mandella. Shouldn’t we take some of the heat off B team?” “Soon as I can find us good enough cover. Is that all right with you? Private?” She’d been promoted to corporal for the duration of the exercise. We angled to the right and lay down behind a slab of rock. Most of the others found cover nearby, but a few had to hug the ground. “Freeman, this is Potter.” “Potter, this is Smithy. Freeman’s out; Samuels is out. We only have five men left. Give us some cover so we can get-” “Roger, Smithy.” Click. “Open up, A team. The B’s are really hurtin’.” Joe tialdeman I peeked out over the edge of the rock. My rangefinder said that the bunker was about three hundred fifty meters away, still pretty far. I aimed a smidgeon high and popped three, then down a couple of degrees, three more. The first ones overshot by about twenty meters; then the second salvo flared up directly in front of the bunker. I tried to hold on that angle and popped fifteen, the rest of the magazine, in the same direction. I should have ducked down behind the rock to reload, but I wanted to see where the fifteen would land, so I kept my eyes on the bunker while I reached back to unclip another magazine- When the laser hit my image converter, there was a red glare so intense it seemed to go right through my eyes and bounce off the back of my skull. It must have been only a few milliseconds before the converter overloaded and went blind, but the bright green afterimage hurt my eyes for several minutes. Since I was officially “dead,” my radio automatically cut off, and I had to remain where I was until the mock battle was over. With no sensory input besides the feel of my own skin (and it ached where the image converter had shone on it) and the ringing in my ears, it seemed like an awfully long time. Finally, a helmet clanked against mine. “You okay, Mandella?” Potter’s voice. “Sorry, I died of boredom twenty minutes ago.” “Stand up and take my hand.” I did so and we shuffled back to the billet. It must have taken over an hour. She didn’t say anything more, all the way back-it’s a pretty awkward way to communicate-but after we’d cycled through the airlock and warmed up, she helped me undo my suit. I got ready for a mild tongue-lashing, but when the suit popped open, before I could even get my eyes adjusted to the light, she grabbed me around the neck and planted a wet kiss on my mouth. “Nice shooting, Mandella.” “Huh?” “Didn’t you see? Of course not.. . . The last salvo before you got hit-four direct hits. The bunker decided it was ItiL rUflLVI~t~ WAIl ~~3 knocked out, and all we bad todo was walk the rest of the way.” “Great.” I scratched my face under the eyes, and some dry skin flaked off. She giggled. “You should see yourself. You look like-” “All personnel, report to the assembly area.” That was the captain’s voice. Bad news, usually. She handed me a tunic and sandals. “Let’s go.” The assembly area-chop hail was just down the corridor. There was a row of roll-call buttons at the door, I pressed the one beside my name. Four of the names were covered with black tape. That was good, only four. We hadn’t lost anybody during today’s maneuvers. The captain was sitting on the raised dais, which at least meant we didn’t have to go through the tench-hut bulishit. The place filled up in less than a minute; a soft chime indicated the roll was complete. Captain Stott didn’t stand up. “You did fairly well today. Nobody killed, and I expected some to be. In that respect you exceeded my expectations but in every other respect you did a poor job. “I am glad you’re taking good care of yourselves, because each of you represents an investment of over a million dollars and one-fourth of a human life. “But in this simulated battle against a very stupid robot enemy, thirty-seven of you managed to walk into laser fire and be killed in a simulated way, and since dead people require no food you will require no food, for the next three Jays. Each person who was a casualty in this baffle will be allowed only two liters of water and a vitamin ration each Jay.” We knew enough not to groan or anything, but there were some pretty disgusted looks, especially on the faces that had singed eyebrows and a pink rectangle of sunburn framing their eyes. “Mandella.” “Sir?” “You are far and away the worst-burned casualty. Was your image converter set on normal?” Oh, shit. “No, sir. Log two.” ~su Joe Ilaftieman “I see. Who was your team leader for the exercises?” “Acting Corporal Potter, sir.” “Private Potter, did you order him to use image intensification?” “Sir, I. . . I don’t remember.” “You don’t Well, as a memory exercise you may join the dead people. Is that satisfactory?” “Yes, sir.” “Good. Dead people get one last meal tonight and go on no rations starting tomorrow. Are there any questions?” He must have been kidding. “All right Dismissed.” I selected the meal that looked as if it had the most calories and took my tray over to sit by Potter. “That was a quixotic damn thing to do. But thanks.” “Nothing. I’ve been wanting to lose a few pounds anyway.” I couldn’t see where she was carrying any extra. “I know a good exercise,” I said. She smiled without looking up from her tray. “Have anybody for tonight?” “Kind of thought I’d ask Jeff.. . .” “Better hurry, then. He’s lusting after Macjima.” Well, that was mostly true. Everybody did. “I don’t know. Maybe we ought to save our strength. That third day . . “Come on.” I scratched the back of her hand lightly with a fingernail. “We haven’t sacked since Missouri. Maybe I’ve learned something new.” “Maybe you have.” She tilted her head up at me in a sly way. “Okay.” Actually, she was the one with the new trick. The French corkscrew, she called it. She wouldn’t tell me who taught it to her though. I’d like to shake his hand. Once I got my strength back. 8 The two weeks’ training around Miami Base eventually cost us eleven lives. Twelve, if you count Dahiquist. I guess having to spend the rest of your life on Charon with a hand and both legs missing is close enough to dying. Foster was crushed in a landslide and Freeland had a suit malfunction that froze him solid before we could carry him inside. Most of the other deaders were people I didn’t know all that well. But they all hurt. And they seemed to make us more scared rather than more cautious. Now darkside. A flyer brought us over in groups of twenty and set us down beside a pile of building materials thoughtfully immersed in a pool of helium H. We used grapples to haul the stuff out of the pool. It’s not safe to go wading, since the stuff crawls all over you and it’s hard to tell what’s underneath; you could walk out onto a slab of hydrogen and be out of luck. I’d suggested that we try to boil away the pool with our lasers, but ten minutes of concentrated fire didn’t drop the helium level appreciably. It didn’t boil, either; helium II is a “superfluid,” so what evaporation there was had to take place evenly, all over the surface. No hot spots, so no bubbling. We weren’t supposed to use lights, to “avoid detection.” There was plenty of starlight with your image converter cranked up to log three or four, but each stage of amplification meant some loss of detail. By log four the landscape looked like a crude monochrome painting, and you couldn’t read the names on people’s helmets unless they were right in front of you. The landscape wasn’t all that interesting, anyhow. There were half a dozen medium-sized meteor craters (all with exactly the same level of helium II in them) and the suggestion of some puny mountains just over the horizon. The 31 32 Joe Haldeman uneven ground was the consistency of frozen spiderwebs; every time you put your foot down, you’d sink half an inch with a squeaking crunch. It could get on your nerves. It took most of a day to pull all the stuff out of the pool. We took shifts napping, which you could do either standing ap, sitting or lying on your stomach. I didn’t do well in ~ny of those positions, so I was anxious to get the bunker built and pressurized. We couldn’t build the thing underground—it’d just fill up with helium 11-so the first thing to do was to build an tnsulating platform, a permaplast-vacuum sandwich three layers thick. I was an acting corporal, with a crew of ten people. We were carrying the permaplast layers to the building site- two people can carry one easily-when one of “my” men slipped and fell on his back. “Damn it, Singer, watch your step.” We’d had a couple of deaders that way. “Sony, Corporal. I’m bushed. Just got my feet tangled up.,’ “Yeah, just watch it.” He got back up all right, and he and his partner placed the sheet and went back to get another. I kept my eye on Singer. In a few minutes he was practically staggering, not easy to do in that suit of cybernetic armor. “Singer! After you set the plank, I want to see you.” “OK.” He labored through the task and mooched over. “Let me check your readout.” I opened the door on his chest to expose the medical monitor. His temperature was two degrees high; blood pressure and heart rate both elevated. Not up to the red line, though. “You sick or something?” “Hell, Mandella, I feel OK, just tired. Since I fell I been a little dizzy.” I chinned the medic’s combination. “Doc, this is Man-della. You wanna come over here for a minute?” “Sure, where are you?” I waved and he walked over from poolside. “What’s the problem?” I showed him Singer’s readout. irir. r’.iiir.vr.n witn He knew what all the other little dials and things meant, so it took him a while. “As far as I can tell, Mandella… he’s just hot.” “Hell, I coulda told you that,” said Singer. “Maybe you better have the armorer take a look at his suit.” We had two people who’d taken a crash course in suit maintenance; they were our “armorers.” I chinned Sanchez and asked him to come over with his tool kit. “Be a couple of minutes, Corporal. Carryin’ a plank.” “Well, put it down and get on over here.” I was getting an uneasy feeling. Waiting for him, the medic and I looked over Singer’s suit. “Uh-oh,” Doc Jones said. “Look at this.” I went around to the back and looked where he was pointing. Two of the fins on the heat exchanger were bent out of shape. “What’s wrong?” Singer asked. “You fell on your heat exchanger, right?” “Sure, Corporal-that’s it. It must not be working right.” “I don’t think it’s working at all,” said Doc. Sanchez came over with his diagnostic kit and we told him what had happened. He looked at the heat exchanger, then plugged a couple of jacks into it and got a digital readout from a little monitor in his kit. I didn’t know what it was measuring, but it came out zero to eight decimal places. Heard a soft click, Sanchez chinning my private frequency. “Corporal, this guy’s a deader.” “What? Can’t you fix the goddamn thing?” “Maybe.. . maybe I could, if I could take it apart. But there’s no way-” “Hey! Sanchez?” Singer was talking on the general freak. “Find out what’s wrong?” He was panting. Click. “Keep your pants on, man, we’re working on it.” Click. “He won’t last long enough for us to get the bunker pressurized. And I can’t work on the heat exchanger from outside of the suit.” “You’ve got a spare suit, haven’t you?” 34 Joe Haldeman “Two of ’em, the fit-anybody kind. But there’s no place …say…” “Right. Go get one of the suits warmed up.” I chinned the general freak. “Listen, Singer, we’ve gona get you out of that thing. Sanchez has a spare suit, but to make the switch, we’re gonna have to build a house around you. Understand?” “Huh-uh.” “Look, we’ll make a box with you inside, and hook it up to the life-support unit. That way you can breathe while you make the switch.” “Soun’s pretty compis. . . compil. . . cated t’me.” “Look, just come along-” “I’ll be all right, man, jus’ lemme res’. . . I grabbed his arm and led him to the building site. He was really weaving. Doc took his other arm, and between us, we kept him from falling over. “Corporal Ho, this is Corporal Mandella.” Ho was in charge of the life-support unit. “Go away, Mandella, I’m, busy.” “You’re going to be busier.” I outlined the problem to her. While her group hurried to adapt the LSU-for this purpose, it need only be an air hose and heater-I got my crew to bring around six slabs of permaplast, so we could build a big box around Singer and the extra suit. It would look like a huge coffin, a meter square and six meters long. We set the suit down on the slab that would be the floor of the coffin. “OK, Singer, let’s go.” No answer. “Singer, let’s go.” No answer. “Singer!” He was just standing there. Doc Jones checked his readout. “He’s out, man, unconscious.” My mind raced. There might just be room for another person in the box. “Give me a hand here.” I took Singer’s shoulders and Doc took his feet, and we carefully laid him out at the feet of the empty suit. Then I lay down myself, above the suit. “OK, close’er up.,, THE FOREVER WAR 35 “Look, Mandella, if anybody goes in there, it oughta be me.” “Fuck you, Doc. My job. My man.” That sounded all wrong. William Mandella, boy hero. They stood a slab up on edge-it had two openings for the LSU input and exhaust-and proceeded to weld it to the bottom plank with a narrow laser beam. On Earth, we’d just use glue, but here the only fluid was helium, which has lots of interesting properties, but is definitely not sticky. After about ten minutes we were completely walled up. I could feel the LSU humming. I switched on my suit light-the first time since we landed on darkside-and the glare made purple blotches dance in front of my eyes. “Mandella, this is Ho. Stay in your suit at least two or three minutes. We’re putting hot air in, but it’s coming back just this side of liquid.” I watched the purple fade for a while. “OK, it’s still cold, but you can make it.” I popped my suit. It wouldn’t open all the way, but I didn’t have too much trouble getting out. The suit was still cold enough to take some skin off my fingers and butt as I wiggled out. I had to crawl feet-first down the coffin to get to Singer. It got darker fast, moving away from my light. When I popped his suit a rush of hot stink hit me in the face. In the dim light his skin was dark red and splotchy. His breathing was very shallow and I could see his heart palpitating. First I unhooked the relief tubes-an unpleasant business-then the biosensors; and then I had the problem of getting his arms out of their sleeves. It’s pretty easy to do for yourself. You twist this way and turn that way and the arm pops out. Doing it from the outside is a different matter: I had to twist his arm and then reach under and move the suit’s arm to match-it takes muscle to move a suit around from the outside. Once I had one arm out it was pretty easy; I just crawled forward, putting my feet on the suit’s shoulders, and pulled on his free ann. He slid out of the suit like an oyster slipping out of its shell. I popped the spare suit and after a lot of pulling and 36 Joe Haldeman pushing, managed to get his legs in. Hooked up the biosensors and the front relief tube. He’d have to do the other one himself; it’s too complicated. For the nth time I was glad not to have been born female; they have to have two of those damned plumber’s friends, instead of just one and a simple hose. I left his arms out of the sleeves. The suit would be useless for any kind of work, anyhow; waldos have to be tailored to the individual. His eyelids fluttered. “Man. . . della. Where. . . the fuck.. I explained, slowly, and he seemed to get most of it. “Now I’m gonna close you up and go get into my suit. I’ll have the crew cut the epd off this thing and I’ll haul you out. Got it?” He nodded. Strange to see that-when you nod or shrug inside a suit, it doesn’t communicate anything. I crawled into my suit, hooked up the attachments and chinned the general freak. “Doc, I think he’s gonna be OK. Get us out of here now.” “Will do.” Ho’s voice. The LSU hum was replaced by a chatter, then a throb. Evacuating the box to prevent an explosion. One corner of the seam grew red, then white, and a bright crimson beam lanced through, not a foot away from my head. I scrunched back as far as I could. The beam slid up the seam and around three corners, back to where it started. The end of the box fell away slowly, trailing filaments of melted ‘plast. “Walt for the stuff to harden, Mandella.” “Sanchez, I’m not that stupid.” “Here you go.” Somebody tossed a line to me. That would be smarter than dragging him out by myself. I threaded a long bight under his arms and tied it behind his neck. Then I scrambled out to help them pull, which was silly-they had a dozen people already lined up to haul. Singer got out all right and was actually sitting up while Doc Jones checked his readout. People were asking me THE FOREVER WAR 37