Multiple segments of the tricolored stripes on the wallpaper, previously mismatched only at the corner, now bent every which way at radical angles to one another, and the corner became so distorted that Jilly could not follow the floor-to-ceiling line of it.
At Shep’s other side, Dylan placed one hand on his brother’s shoulder. ‘Stay here, buddy. Right here with us, safe with us.’
The folding motion halted, but the corner remained tweaked into a surreal geometry.
Jilly seemed to be looking at this small portion of the world through an octagonal prism. Her mind rebelled at the spectacle, which defied reason to an extent that even the radiant tunnel in the wall had not done.
With the palm of her right hand still against the back of Shep’s right hand, Jilly was afraid to struggle with him, for fear that any movement she made would further fold here to there, wherever there might be this time. ‘Smooth it out, honey,’ she urged, tremors creasing her voice as strangely as the walls were folded before her. ‘Let it go, sweetie. Smooth it out like it ought to be.’
Between thumb and forefinger, Shepherd still pinched the fabric of reality.
Slowly he turned his head to look at Jilly. He met her eyes as directly as he had met them only once before: when he’d been in the backseat of the Expedition outside the house on Eucalyptus Avenue, just after Dylan had rushed away without explanation. Then, Shep had flinched from eye contact, had looked at once away.
This time he held her gaze. His green eyes appeared as deep as oceans and seemed to be lit from within.
‘Do you feel it?’ he asked.
‘Feel what?’
‘Feel how it works, the round and round of all that is.’
She supposed that by transmission through his hand, he expected her to feel what he felt between his thumb and forefinger, but she was aware only of his warm skin, of the sharpness of his metacarpals and his knuckles. She expected to detect tremendous tension, as well, to have an awareness of how hard Shep must be straining to achieve this incredible feat, but he seemed to be relaxed, as though folding this place to another required no more effort than folding a towel.
‘Do you feel the beautiful of all that is?’ he asked, addressing her with a directness that had no element of autistic detachment.
As beautiful as the secret structure of reality might be, this close an encounter with the mystery of it did not delight her as it seemed to enchant Shepherd, but instead crystallized an ice of terror in her bones. She wanted not to understand, but only to persuade him to close this gateway before he fully opened it.
‘Please smooth it out, sweetie. Smooth it out again so I can feel how it unfolds.’
Although her father had been shot to death a year ago in a drug deal gone bad, Jilly had the fearful notion that if Shepherd didn’t unfold this, if instead he folded it all the way and took them from here to there, she would abruptly come face to face with her hateful old man, as she had often opened the apartment door to the sight of his dangerous smile. She expected Shep to swing wide the gate to Hell as easily as he opened a gate to California, facilitating a father-and-daughter reunion. Come to collect the eye insurance, baby girl. You got the eye-insurance premium? As though Shep might unwittingly give her father a chance to reach out from Beyond to make good on his unfulfilled threat, blinding her in not one eye, but in both.
Shep’s gaze drifted away from her. He refocused on his thumb and forefinger.
He had tweaked the pinch of nothing from left to right. Now he tweaked it right to left.
The wildly angled stripes in the wallpaper realigned themselves. The unbroken line of the corner, floor to ceiling, became clearly visible again, without a single zig or zag. What she had seemed to see through an octagonal prism, she here saw undistorted.
Squinting at the pinch point where Shep still squeezed something between thumb and forefinger, Jilly thought she saw the air dimple like a puckered film of thin plastic wrap.