“Poor old boy!”
“Hoping to hear you sing. And when you did sing, and he joined in all flat, I used to swear. You’ll probably find most of the bark scorched off the tree I leaned against.”
“Poor old man! Still, it’s all over now, isn’t it?”
“And when I was doing my very best to show off before you at tennis, you went away just as I got into form.”
“I’m very sorry, but I couldn’t know, could I? I though you always played like that.”
“I know. I knew you would. It nearly turned my hair white. I didn’t see how a girl could ever care for a man who was so bad at tennis.”
“One doesn’t love a man because he’s good at tennis.”
“What /does/ a girl see to love in a man?” I inquired abruptly; and paused on the verge of a great discovery.
“Oh, I don’t know,” she replied, most unsatisfactorily.
And I could draw no views from her.
“But about father,” said she. “What /are/ we to do?”
“He objects to me.”
“He’s perfectly furious with you.”
“Blow, blow,” I said, “thou winter wind. Thou are not so unkind—-”
“He’ll never forgive you.”
“—-As man’s ingratitude. I saved his life. At the risk of my own. Why I believe I’ve got a legal claim on him. Who ever heard of a man having his life saved, and not being delighted when his preserver wanted to marry his daughter? Your father is striking at the very root of the short-story writer’s little earnings. He mustn’t be allowed to do it.”
“Jerry!”
I started.
“Again!” I said.
“What?”
“Say it again. Do, please. Now.”
“Very well. Jerry!”
“It was the first time you had called me by my Christian name. I don’t suppose you’ve the remotest notion how splendid it sounds when you say it. There is something poetical, almost holy, about it.”
“Jerry, please!”
“Say on.”
“Do be sensible. Don’t you see how serious this is? We must think how we can make father consent.”
“All right,” I said. “We’ll tackle the point. I’m sorry to be frivolous, but I’m so happy I can’t keep it all in. I’ve got you and I can’t think of anything else.”
“Try.”
“I’ll pull myself together…. Now, say on once more.”
“We can’t marry without his consent.”
“Why not?” I said, not having a marked respect for the professor’s whims. “Gretna Green is out of date, but there are registrars.”
“I hate the very idea of a registrar,” she said with decision. “Besides—-”
“Well?”
“Poor father would never get over it. We’ve always been such friends. If I married against his wishes, he would–oh, you know. Not let me near him again, and not write to me. And he would hate it all the time he was doing it. He would be bored to death without me.”
“Who wouldn’t?” I said.
“Because, you see, Norah has never been quite the same. She has spent such a lot of her time on visits to people, that she and father don’t understand each other so well as he and I do. She would try and be nice to him, but she wouldn’t know him as I do. And, besides, she will be with him such a little, now she’s going to be married.”
“But, look here,” I said, “this is absurd. You say your father would never see you again, and so on, if you married me. Why? It’s nonsense. It isn’t as if I were a sort of social outcast. We were the best of friends till that man Hawk gave me away like that.”
“I know. But he’s very obstinate about some things. You see, he thinks the whole thing has made him look ridiculous, and it will take him a long time to forgive you for that.”
I realised the truth of this. One can pardon any injury to oneself, unless it hurts one’s vanity. Moreover, even in a genuine case of rescue, the rescued man must always feel a little aggrieved with his rescuer, when he thinks the matter over in cold blood. He must regard him unconsciously as the super regards the actor-manager, indebted to him for the means of supporting existence, but grudging him the limelight and the centre of the stage and the applause. Besides, every one instinctively dislikes being under an obligation which they can never wholly repay. And when a man discovers that he has experienced all these mixed sensations for nothing, as the professor had done, his wrath is likely to be no slight thing.