IV
I scudded the jeepster to a halt in front of the only entrance I knew, M’Cwyie’s. Braxa, who had seen the rose in a headlamp, now cradled it in her lap, like our child, and said nothing. There was a passive, lovely look on her face. “Are they in the Temple now?” I wanted to know. The Madonna-expression did not change. I repeated the question. She stirred. “Yes,” she said, from a distance, “but you cannot go in.” “We’ll see.” I circled and helped her down. I led her by the hand, and she moved as if in a trance. In the light of the new-risen moon, her eyes looked as they had the day I had met her, when she had danced. I snapped my fingers. Nothing happened. So I pushed the door open and led her in. The room was half-lighted. And she screamed for the third time that evening: “Do not harm him, Ontro! It is Gallinger!” I had never seen a Martian man before, only women. So I had no way of knowing whether he was a freak, though I suspected it strongly. I looked up at him. His half-naked body was covered with moles and swellings. Gland trouble, I guessed. I had thought I was the tallest man on the planet, but he was seven feet tall and overweight. Now I knew where my giant bed had come from! “Go back,” he said. “She may enter. You may not.” “I must get my books and things.” He raised a huge left arm. I followed it. All my belonging lay neatly stacked in the corner. “I must go in. I must talk with M’Cwyie and the Mothers.” “You may not.” “The lives of your people depend on it.” “Go back,” he boomed. “Go home to _your_ people, Gallinger. Leave _us_!” My name sounded so different on his lips, like someone else’s. How old was he? I wondered. Three hundred? Four? Had he been a Temple guardian all his life? Why? Who was there to guard against? I didn’t like the way he moved. I had seen men who moved like that before. “Go back,” he repeated. If they had refined their martial arts as far as they had their dances, or worse yet, if their fighting arts were a part of the dance, I was in for trouble. “Go on in,” I said to Braxa. “Give the rose to M’Cwyie. Tell her that I sent it. Tell her I’ll be there shortly.” “I will do as you ask. Remember me on Earth, Gallinger. Good-bye.” I did not answer her, and she walked past Ontro and into the next room, bearing her rose. “Now will you leave?” he asked. “If you like, I will tell her that we fought and you almost beat me, but I knocked you unconscious and carried you back to your ship.” “No,” I said, “either I go around you or go over you, but I am going through.” He dropped into a crouch, arms extended. “It is a sin to lay hands on a holy man,” he rumbled, “but I will stop you, Gallinger.” My memory was a fogged window, suddenly exposed to fresh air. Things cleared. I looked back six years. I was a student of the Oriental Languages at the University of Tokyo. It was my twice-weekly night of recreation. I stood in a thirty-foot circle in the Kodokan, the _judogi_ lashed about my high hips by a brown belt. I was _Ik-kyu_, one notch below the lowest degree of expert. A brown diamond above my right breast said “Jiu-Jitsu” in Japanese, and it meant _atemiwaza_, really, because of the one striking-technique I had worked out, found unbelievably suitable to my size, and won matches with. But I had never used it on a man, and it was five years since I had practiced. I was out of shape, I knew, but I tried hard to force my mind _tsuki no kokoro_, like the moon, reflecting the all of Ontro. Somewhere, out of the past, a voice said “_Hajime_, let it begin.” I snapped into my _neko-ashi-dachi_ cat-stance, and his eyes burned strangely. He hurried to correct his own position–and I threw it at him! My one trick! My long left leg lashed up like a broken spring. Seven feet off the ground my foot connected with his jaw as he tried to leap backward. His head snapped back and he fell. A soft moan escaped his lips. _That’s all there is to it,_ I thought. _Sorry, old fellow._ And as I stepped over him, somehow, groggily, he tripped me, and I fell across his body. I couldn’t believe he had strength enough to remain conscious after that blow, let alone move. I hated to punish him any more. But he found my throat and slipped a forearm across it before I realized there was a purpose to his action. _No! Don’t let it end like this!_ It was a bar of steel across my windpipe, my carotids. Then I realized that he was still unconscious, and that this was a reflex instilled by countless years of training. I had seen it happen once, in _shiai_. The man had died because he had been choked unconscious and still fought on, and his opponent thought he had not been applying the choke properly. He tried harder. But it was rare, so very rare! I jammed my elbow into his ribs and threw my head back in his face. The grip eased, but not enough. I hated to do it, but I reached up and broke his little finger. The arm went loose and I twisted free. He lay there panting, face contorted. My heart went out to the fallen giant, defending his people, his religion, following his orders. I cursed myself as I had never cursed before, for walking over him, instead of around. I staggered across the room to my little heap of possessions. I sat on the projector case and lit a cigarette. I couldn’t go into the Temple until I got my breath back, until I thought of something to say. How do you talk a race out of killing itself? Suddenly– –Could it happen! Would it work that way? If I read them the Book of Ecclesiastes–if I read them a greater piece of literature than any Locar ever wrote–and as somber–and as pessimistic–and showed them that our race had gone on despite one man’s condemning all of life in the highest poetry–showed them that the vanity he had mocked had borne us to the Heavens–would they believe it–would they change their minds? I ground out my cigarette on the beautiful floor, and found my notebook. A strange fury rose within me as I stood. And I walked into the Temple to preach the Black Gospel according to Gallinger, from the Book of Life.