Chavez relinquished his weapon to another squad member and walked back from the firing line. He was still trying to figure things out. Infantry combat is the business of death, at the personal level, where you could usually see what you were doing and to whom you were doing it. The fact that Chavez had not actually done it yet was irrelevant; it was still his business, and the organization of his unit told him what form the mission would take. Special ops. It had to be special ops. He knew a guy who’d been in the Delta Force at Bragg. Special operations were merely a refinement of straight infantry stuff. You had to get in real close, usually you had to chop down the sentries, and then you hit hard and fast, like a bolt of lightning. If it wasn’t over in ten seconds or less – well, then things got a little too exciting. The funny part to Chavez was the similarity with street-gang tactics. There was no fair play in soldiering. You sneaked in and did people in the back without warning. You didn’t give them a chance to protect themselves – none at all. But what was called cowardly in a gang kid was simply good tactics to a soldier. Chavez smiled to himself. It hardly seemed fair, when you looked at it like that. The Army was just better organized than a gang. And, of course, its targets were selected by others. The whole point to an Army, probably, was that what it did made sense to someone. That was true of gangs, too, but Army activity was supposed to make sense to someone important, someone who knew what he was really doing. Even if what he was doing didn’t make much sense to him – a frequent occurrence for soldiers – it did make sense to somebody.
Chavez wasn’t old enough to remember Vietnam.
Seduction was the saddest part of the job.
With this, as with all parts of his profession, Cortez had been trained to be coldly objective and businesslike, but there wasn’t a way to be coldly intimate – at least not if you wanted to accomplish anything. Even the KGB Academy had recognized that. There had been hours of lectures on the pitfalls, he remembered with an ironic smile – Russians trying to tell a Latin about romantic entanglements. Probably the climate worked against them. You adapted your approach to the individual peculiarities of your target subject, in this case a widow who at forty-six retained surprising good looks, who had enough remaining of her youth to need companionship after the children retired for the evening or went out on their own dates, whose bed was a lonely place of memories grown cold. It wasn’t his first such subject, and there was always something brave about them, as well as something pathetic. He was supposed to think – as his training had taught him – that their problems were their business and his opportunity. But how does a man become intimate with such a woman without feeling her pain? The KGB instructors hadn’t had an answer to that one, though they did give him the proper technique. He, too, had to have suffered a recent loss.
His “wife” had also died of cancer, he’d told her. He’d married late in life, the story went, after getting the family business back on track – all that time working, flying around to secure the business his father had spent his life founding – and then married his Maria only three years before. She’d become pregnant, but when she’d visited the doctor to confirm the joyous news, the routine tests… only six months. The baby hadn’t had a chance, and Cortez had nothing left of Maria. Perhaps, he’d told his wineglass, it was God’s punishment on him for marrying so young a girl, or for his many dalliances as a footloose playboy.
At that point Moira’s hand had come across the table to touch his. Of course it wasn’t his fault, the woman told him. And he looked up to see the sympathy in the eyes of someone who’d asked herself questions not so different from those he’d just ostensibly addressed to himself. People were so predictable. All you had to do was press the right buttons – and have the proper feelings. When her hand had come to his, the seduction was accomplished. There had been a flush of warmth from the touch, the feeling of simple humanity. But if he thought of her as a simple target, how could he return the emotions – and how could he accomplish the mission? He felt her pain, her loneliness. He would be good to her.
And so he was, now two days later. It would have been comical except for how touching it was, how she’d prepared herself like a teenage girl on a date – something she hadn’t done for over twenty years; certainly her children had found it entertaining, but there had been enough time since the death of their father that they didn’t resent their mother’s needs and had smiled bemused encouragement at her as she walked out to her car. A quick, nervous dinner, then the short ride to his hotel. Some more wine to get over the nerves that were real for both of them, if more so for her. But it had certainly been worth the wait. She was out of practice, but her responses were far more genuine than those he got from his usual bedmates. Cortez was very good at sex. He was proud of his abilities and gave her an above-average performance: an hour’s work, building her up slowly, then letting her back down as gently as he knew how.
Now they lay side by side, her head on his shoulder, tears dripping slowly from her eyes in the silence. A fine woman, this one. Even dying young, her husband had been a lucky man to have a woman who knew that silence could be the greatest passion of all. He watched the clock on the end table. Ten minutes of silence before he spoke.
“Thank you, Moira… I didn’t know… it’s been.” He cleared his throat. “This is the first time since… since…” Actually it had been a week since the last one, which had cost him thirty thousand pesos. A young one, a skilled one. But –
The woman’s strength surprised him. He was barely able to take his next breath, so powerful was her embrace. Part of what had once been his conscience told him that he ought to be ashamed, but the greater part reported that he’d given more than he’d taken. This was better than purchased sex. There were feelings, after all, that money couldn’t buy; it was a thought both reassuring and annoying to Cortez, and one which amplified his sense of shame. Again he rationalized that there would be no shame without her powerful embrace, and the embrace would not have come unless he had pleased her greatly.
He reached behind himself to the other end table and got his cigarettes.
“You shouldn’t smoke,” Moira Wolfe told him.
He smiled. “I know. I must quit. But after what you have done to me,” he said with a twinkle in his eye, “I must gather myself.” Silence.
“Madre de Dios,” he said after another minute.
“What’s the matter?”
Another mischievous smile. “Here I have given myself to you, and I hardly know who you are!”
“What do you want to know?”
A chuckle. A shrug. “Nothing important – I mean, what could be more important than what you have already done?” A kiss. A caress. More silence. He stubbed out the cigarette at the halfway point to show that her opinion was important to him. “I am not good at this.”
“Really?” It was her turn to chuckle, his turn to blush.
“It is different, Moira. I – when I was a young man, it was understood that when – it was understood that there was no importance, but… now I am grown, and I cannot be so…” Embarrassment. “If you permit it, I wish to know about you, Moira. I come to Washington frequently, and I wish… I am tired of the loneliness. I am tired of… I wish to know you,” he said with conviction. Then, tentatively, haltingly, hopeful but afraid, “If you permit it.”
She kissed his cheek gently. “I permit it.”
Instead of his own powerful hug, Cortez let his body go slack with relief not wholly feigned. More silence before he spoke again.
“You should know about me. I am wealthy. My business is machine tools and auto parts. I have two factories, one in Costa Rica, the other in Venezuela. The business is complicated and – not dangerous, but… it is complicated dealing with the big assemblers. I have two younger brothers also in the business. So… what work do you do?”
“Well, I’m an executive secretary. I’ve been doing that kind of work for twenty years.”