It did not seem so long ago that she was born. I would never forget her wide, unblinking eyes following my every move in her mother’s house, or her bewildering fits of petulance and grief when I failed her in some small way. Lucy’s open adoration touched my heart as profoundly as it frightened me. She had caused me to experience a depth of feeling I had not known before. Talking my way past Security, I waited at the gate, eagerly searching passengers emerging from the boarding bridge. I was looking for a pudgy teenager with long, irk red hair and braces when a striking young woman met my eyes and grinned.
“Lucy, “ I exclaimed, hugging her. “My God. I almost didn’t recognize you.”
Her hair was short and deliberately messy, accentuating dear green eyes and good bones I did not know she had. There was not so much as a hint of metal in her mouth, and her thick glasses had been replaced by weightless tortoise-shell frames that gave her the look of a seriously pretty Harvard scholar. But it was the change in her body that astonished me most, for since I had seen – her last she had been transformed from a chunky adolescent into a lean, leggy athlete dressed in snug, faded jeans several inches too short, a white blouse, a woven red leather belt, loafers, and no socks. She carried a book satchel, and I caught the sparkle of a delicate gold ankle bracelet. I was fairly certain she was wearing neither makeup nor bra.
“Where’s your coat?” I asked as we headed to Baggage.
“It was eighty degrees when I left Miami this morning,” “You’ll freeze walking out to the car.”
“It’s physically impossible for me to freeze while walking to your car unless you’re parked in Chicago.”
“Perhaps you have a sweater in your suitcase?”
“You ever notice that you talk to me the same way Grans talks to you? By the way, she thinks I look like a ‘pet rocker.’ That’s her malapropism for the month. It’s what you get when you cross a pet rock with a punk rocker.”
“I’ve got a couple of ski jackets, corduroys, hats, gloves. You can borrow anything you wish.”
She slipped her arm in mine and staffed my hair. “You’re still not smoking.”
“I’m still not smoking and I hate being reminded that I’m still not smoking because then I think about smoking.”
“You look better and don’t stink like cigarettes. And you haven’t gotten fat. Geez, this is a dinky airport,” said Lucy, whose computer brain had formatting errors in the diplomacy sectors. “Why do they call it Richmond International?”
“Because it has flights to Miami.”
“Why doesn’t Grans ever come see you?”
“She doesn’t like to travel and refuses to fly.”
“It’s safer than driving. Her hip is really getting bad, Aunt Kay.”
“I know. I’m going to leave you to get your bags so I can pull the car in front,” I said when we got to Baggage. “But first let’s see which carousel it is.”
“There are only three carousels. I bet I can figure it out.”
I left her for the bright, cold air, grateful for a moment alone to think. The changes in my niece had thrown me off guard and I was suddenly more unsure than ever how to treat her. Lucy had never been easy. From day one she had been a prodigious adult intellect ruled by infantile emotions, a volatility accidentally given form when her mother had married Armando. My only advantage had been size and age. Now Lucy was as tall as I was and spoke with the low, calm voice of an equal. She was not going to run to her room and slam the door. She would no longer end a disagreement by screaming that she hated me or was glad I was not her mother. I imagined moods I could not anticipate and arguments I could not win. I had visions of her coolly leaving the house and driving off in my car.
We talked little during the drive, for Lucy seemed fascinated by the winter weather. The world was melting like an ice sculpture as another cold front appeared on the horizon in an ominous band of gray. When we turned into the neighborhood where I had moved since she had visited last, she stared out at expensive homes and lawns, at colonial Christmas decorations and brick sidewalks. A man dressed like an Eskimo was out walking his old, overweight dog, and a black Jaguar gray with road salt sprayed water as it slowly floated past.