And his lips . . . he couldn’t feel his lips. They had gone numb, the way they sometimes did after a big shot of novocaine.
Pearson turned to the good-looking young man in the cream-colored suit and said, ‘This is ridiculous, but I think I’m going to faint.’
‘No, you’re not,’ the young man said, and he spoke with such assurance that Pearson believed him, at least temporarily. The hand gripped his arm above the elbow again, but much more gently this time. ‘Come on over here — you need to sit down.’
There were circular marble islands about three feet high scattered around the broad plaza in front of the bank, each containing its own variety of late summer/early fall flowers. There were Ten O’clock People sitting on the rims of most of these upscale flower tubs, some reading, some chatting, some looking out at the passing rivers of foot-traffic on the sidewalks of Commercial Street, but all of them also doing the thing that made them Ten O’Clock People, the thing Pearson had come downstairs and outside to do himself. The marble island closest to Pearson and his new acquaintance contained asters, their purple miraculously brilliant to Pearson in his heightened state of awareness. Its circular rim was vacant, probably because it was going on for ten past the hour now, and people had begun to drift back inside.
‘Sit down,’ the young black man in the cream-colored suit invited, and although Pearson tried his best, what he ended up doing felt more like falling than sitting. At one moment he was standing beside the reddish-brown marble island, and then somebody pulled the pins in his knees and he landed on his ass. Hard.
‘Bend over now,’ the young man said, sitting down beside him. His face had remained pleasant throughout the entire encounter, but there was nothing pleasant about his eyes; they combed rapidly back and forth across the plaza.
‘Why?’
‘To get the blood back into your head,’ the young black man said. ‘But don’t make it look like that. Make it look like you’re just smelling the flowers.’
‘Look like to who?’
‘Just do it, okay?’ The smallest tinge of impatience had crept into the young man’s voice.
Pearson leaned his head over and took a deep breath. The flowers didn’t smell as good as they looked, he discovered — they had a weedy, faintly dog-pissy smell. Still, he thought his head might be clearing just a tiny bit.
‘Start saying the states,’ the black man ordered. He crossed his legs, shook out the fabric of his pants to preserve the crease, and brought a package of Winstons out of an inner pocket. Pearson realized his own cigarette was gone; he must have dropped it-in that first shocked moment, when he had seen the monstrous thing in the expensive suit crossing the west side of the plaza.
‘The states,’ he said blankly.
The young black man nodded, produced a lighter that was probably quite a bit less expensive than it looked at first glance, and lit his cigarette. ‘Start with this one and work your way west,’
he invited.
‘Massachusetts . . . New York, I suppose . . . or Vermont if you start from upstate . . . New Jersey . . . ‘ Now he straightened up a little and began to speak with greater confidence.
‘Pennsylvania, West Virginia, Ohio, Illinois — ‘
The black man raised his eyebrows. ‘West Virginia, huh? You sure?’
Pearson smiled a little. ‘Pretty sure, yeah. I might have got Ohio and Illinois bass-ackwards, though.’
The black man shrugged to show it didn’t matter, and smiled. ‘You don’t feel like you’re going to faint anymore, though — I can see you don’t — and that’s the important part. Want a butt?’
‘Thank you,’ Pearson said gratefully. He did not just want a butt; he felt that he needed one. ‘I had one, but I lost it. What’s your name?’
The black man poked a fresh Winston between Pearson’s lips and snapped a light to it. ‘Dudley Rhinemann. You can call me Duke.’
Pearson dragged deeply on the cigarette and looked toward the revolving doors which gave ingress upon all the gloomy depths and cloudy heights of The First Mercantile. ‘That wasn’t just a hallucination, was it?’ he asked. ‘What I saw . . . you saw it, too, right?’
Rhinemann nodded.
‘You didn’t want him to know I saw him,’ Pearson said. He spoke slowly, trying to put it together on his own. His voice was back in its usual spot again, and that alone was a big relief.
Rhinemann nodded again.
‘But how could I not see him? And how could he not know it?’
‘Did you see anyone else getting ready to holler themselves into a stroke like you were?’
Rhinemann asked. ‘See anybody else even looking the way you were? Me, for instance?’
Pearson shook his head slowly. He now felt more than just frightened; he felt totally lost.
‘I got between you and him the best I could, and I don’t think he saw you, but for a second or two there it was close. You looked like a man who just saw a mouse crawl out of his meatloaf.
You’re in Collateral Loans, aren’t you?’
‘Oh yes — Brandon Pearson. Sorry.’
‘I’m in Computer Services, myself. And it’s okay. Seeing your first batman can do that to you.’
Duke Rhinemann stuck out his hand and Pearson shook it, but most of his mind was one turn back. Seeing your first batman can do that to you, the young man had said, and once Pearson had jettisoned his initial image of the Caped Crusader swinging his way between the art-deco spires of Gotham City, he discovered that wasn’t a bad term at all. He discovered something else, as well, or perhaps rediscovered it: it was good to have a name for something that had frightened you. It didn’t make the fright go away, but it went a long way toward rendering the fright manageable.
Now he deliberately replayed what he had seen, thinking Batman, it was my first batman, as he did.
He had come out through the revolving doors thinking of only one thing, the same thing he was always thinking about when he came down at ten — how good that first rush of nicotine was going to feel when it hit his brain. It was what made him a part of the tribe; it was his version of phylacteries or tattooed cheeks.
He had first registered the fact that the day had gotten even darker since he’d come in at eight-forty-five, and had thought: We’ll be puffing our cancer-sticks in the pouring rain this afternoon, the whole damned bunch of us. Not that a little rain would stop them, of course; the Ten O’clock People were nothing if not persistent.
He remembered sweeping his eyes across the plaza, doing a quick attendance check — so quick it was really almost unconscious. He had seen the girl in the red skirt (and wondered again, as he always did, if anyone who looked that good would be any good in the sack), the young bebop janitor from the third floor who wore his cap turned around while he was mopping the floors in the John and the snack-bar, the elderly man with the fine white hair and the purple blotches on his cheeks, the young woman with the thick glasses, narrow face, and long straight black hair. He had seen a number of others he vaguely recognized, as well. One of them, of course, had been the good-looking young black man in the cream-colored suit.
If Timmy Flanders had been around, Pearson probably would have joined him, but he wasn’t, and so Pearson had moved toward the center of the plaza instead, meaning to sit on one of the marble islands (the very one he was sitting on now, in fact). Once there he would have been in an excellent position to calculate the length and curves of Little Miss Red Skirt’s legs — a cheap thrill, granted, but one made do with the materials at hand. He was a well-married man with a wife he loved and a daughter he adored, he’d never come even close to cheating, but as he approached forty, he had discovered certain imperatives surfacing in his blood like sea-monsters.
And he didn’t know how any man could help staring at a red skirt like that, wondering just a little if the woman was wearing matching underwear beneath.
He had barely gotten moving when the newcomer had turned the corner of the building and begun mounting the plaza steps. Pearson had caught movement in the corner of his eye, and under ordinary circumstances he would have dismissed it — it was the red skirt he had been concentrating on just then, short, tight, and as bright as the side of a fire engine. But he had looked, because, even seen from the corner of his eye and with other things on his mind, he had registered something wrong with the face and the head that went with the approaching figure. So he had turned and looked, canceling sleep for God knew how many nights to come.