I heard a key turn in the lock and I realized, with a start, I’d drifted off to sleep. I sat up, blinking fuzzily. Below me, Dietz was turning on additional lights. I could hear the crackle of paper. I got up and moved over to the railing, looking down at him. He turned on the radio. I put my fingers in my ears so I wouldn’t have to listen to Elvis sing soulfully about love. Who needs that shit? Dietz was a big country music fan and I was hoping he’d flip the station to find something more twangy and a lot less to the point. He sensed my presence and tilted his face in my direction. “Good. You’re home. I didn’t see your car outside,” he said. “I picked up some groceries. You want to help me unload?”
“I’ll be there in a minute.” I made a quick detour to the bathroom, where I ran a comb through my hair, brushed my teeth, and availed myself of the facilities. I’d forgotten how domesticated Dietz could be. When I thought about the man, it was his personal-security expertise that came foremost to mind. I padded down the stairs in my sock feet. “How’d you know what we needed?”
“I checked. Surprise, surprise. The cupboards were bare.” He had the refrigerator open, placing eggs, bacon, butter, lunch meats, and various other high-fat, high-cholesterol items in the bins. On the counter was a six-pack of beer, two bottles of Chardonnay, extra-crunchy peanut butter, canned goods and assorted condiments, along with a loaf of bread. He’d even remembered paper napkins, paper towels, toilet paper, and liquid detergent. I put the canned goods in the cabinet and turned off the radio. If Dietz noticed, he said nothing.
Over his shoulder, he said, “How’d the interview go?
I said, “Fine. I haven’t made a lick of progress, but you have to start someplace.”
“What’s the next move?”
“I’m having Darcy run a DMV check through the insurance company I used to work for. She hopes to have something early tomorrow morning. Then we’ll see what’s what. I have other lines of pursuit, but she’s my best bet so far.”
“You’re not working for California Fidelity these days?”
“Actually, I’m not. I got my ass fired because I wouldn’t kiss someone else’s. I rent an office in a law firm. It works out better that way.”
I could see him toy with other questions, but he must have decided that the less said the better.
He changed the subject. “Can I talk you into eating out?”
“What’d you have in mind?”
“Something in walking distance where we don’t have to dress.”
I looked at him for a moment, feeling strangely unwilling to cooperate. “How’s the old friend?”
Dietz suppressed a smile. “He’s fine. Is that what’s bothering you?”
“No. I don’t know. I think I’ve been depressed for weeks and just now got in touch with it. I’m also nervous about the job. I’m working for my cousin Tasha, which I probably shouldn’t be doing.”
“A cousin? That’s a new one. Where did she come from?”
“God, you are out of date.”
“Grab a jacket and let’s go. You can talk about it over dinner and bring me up to speed.”
We walked from my apartment to a restaurant on the breakwater, three long blocks during which little was said. The night was very chilly and the lights strung out along the harbor were like leftover Christmas decorations. Over the softly tumbling surf, I could hear the tinkle of a buoy, the tinny sound mixing with the gentle lapping of water against the boats in the marina. Many vessels were alight and the occasional glimpses of the live-aboards reminded me of a trailer park, a community of small spaces, looking cozy from outside. Dietz’s pace was rapid. He had his head bent, his hands in his pockets, heels clicking on the pavement. I kept up with him, my mind running back over what I knew of him.
His upbringing had been a strange one. He’d told me he was born in a van on the road outside Detroit. His mother was in labor and his father was too impatient to find an emergency room. His father was a brawler and a bully who worked the oil rigs, moving his family from one town to the next as the mood struck. Dietz’s granny, his mother’s mother, traveled with them in the vehicle of the moment-a truck, a van, or a station wagon, all secondhand and subject to breakdown or quick sale if the money ran low. Dietz had been educated out of an assortment of old textbooks while his mother and granny drank beers and threw the cans out the window onto the highway. His dislike of formal schooling was an attribute we shared. Because he’d had so little experience with institutions, he was fiercely insubordinate. He didn’t so much go against regulations as ignore them, operating on the assumption that the rules simply didn’t apply to him. I liked his rebelliousness. At the same time, I was wary. I was into caution and control. He was into anarchy.
We reached the restaurant, the Tramp Steamer, a cramped and overheated gray-frame establishment located up a narrow flight of wooden stairs. A modest effort had been made to give the place a nautical feel, but its real attraction was the fared raw oysters, fried shrimp, peppery chowder, and homemade bread. There was a full bar near the entrance, but most of the clientele preferred beer. The air was saturated with the smell of hops and cigarette smoke. Between the honky-tonk jukebox, the raucous laughter, and conversations, the noise was palpable. Dietz scanned the room for seating, then pushed through a side door and found us a table on the deck, overlooking the marina. Outside, it was quieter and the chill air was offset by the red glow of wall-mounted propane heaters. The briny scent of the ocean seemed stronger up here than it had down below. I took. a deep breath, sucking it into my lungs like ether. It had the same sedative effect and I could feel myself unwind.
“You want Chardonnay?” he asked.
“I’d love it.”
I sat at the table while he moved back inside to the bar. I watched him through the window in conversation with the bartender. As he waited for the order, his gaze moved restlessly across the crowd. He crossed to the jukebox and studied the selections. Dietz was the sort of man who paced and tapped his fingers, subterranean energy constantly bubbling to the surface. I seldom saw him read a book because he couldn’t sit still that long. When he did read, he was out of commission, utterly absorbed until he was finished. He liked competition. He liked guns. He liked machines. He liked tools. He liked climbing rocks. His basic attitude was “What are you saving yourself for?” My basic attitude was “Let’s not jump right into things.”
Dietz wandered back to the bar and stood there jiggling the change in his pocket. The bartender set a mug of beer and a glass of wine on the counter. Dietz peeled off some bills and returned to the deck, trailing the smell of cigarette smoke like a strange aftershave. He said, “Service is slow. I hope the food’s good.” We touched glasses before we drank, though I wasn’t sure what we were drinking to.
I opened a menu and let my eyes trace the choices. I wasn’t really that hungry. Maybe a salad or soup. I usually don’t eat much at night.
“I called the boys,” he remarked.
“And how are they?” I asked. I’d never met his two sons, but he spoke of them with affection.
“They’re fine. The boys are great,” he said. “Nick turns twenty-one on the fourteenth. He’s a senior at Santa Cruz, but he just changed his major so he’ll probably be there another year. Graham’s nineteen and a sophomore. They’re sharing an apartment with a bunch of guys this year. They’re smart kids. They like school and seem to be motivated. More than I ever was. Naomi’s done a good job, without a lot of help from me. I support ’em, but I can’t say I ever spent much time on the scene. I feel bad about that, but you know how I am. I’m a rolling stone. I can’t help it. I could never settle down and buy a house and work nine to five. I can’t behave myself in a situation like that.”
“Where’s Naomi?”
“San Francisco. She got a law degree. I paid her tuition-I’m good about that end-but all the hard work was hers. The boys say she’s getting married to some attorney up there.”
“Good for her.”
“How about you? What have you been up to?”
“Not a lot. Mostly work. I don’t take vacations so I haven’t been anywhere that didn’t somehow involve a stakeout or a background check. I’m a bundle of laughs.”