He watched Todd do nothing. Then he went down the hall and picked up the telephone. Still Todd stood in the living room, beside the table with the small lamp on it.
Dussander began to dial. Todd watched him, his heart speeding up until it was drumming in his chest. After the fourth number, Dussander turned and looked at him. His shoulders sagged. He put the phone down.
‘A boy,’ he breathed. ‘A boy:
Todd smiled widely but rather modestly.
‘How did you find out?’
‘One piece of luck and a lot of hard work,’ Todd said There’s this friend of mine, Harold Pegler his name is, only all the kids call him Foxy. He plays second base for our team. And his dad’s got all these magazines out in his garage. Great big stacks of them. War magazines. They’re old. I looked for some new ones, but the guy who runs the newsstand across from the school says most of them went out of business. In most of them there’s pictures of Krauts — German soldiers, I mean — and Japs torturing these women. And articles about the concentration camps. I really groove on all that concentration camp stuff.’
‘You… groove on it.’ Dussander was staring at him, one hand rubbing up and down on his cheek, producing a very small sandpapery sound.
‘Groove. You know. I get off on it. I’m interested.’
He remembered that day in Foxy’s garage as clearly as anything in his life — more clearly, he suspected. He remembered in the fourth grade, before Careers Day, how Mrs Anderson (all the kids called her Bugs because of her big front teeth) had talked to them about what she called finding YOUR GREAT INTEREST.
‘It comes all at once,’ Bugs Anderson had rhapsodized. ‘You see something for the first time, and right away you know you have found YOUR GREAT INTEREST. It’s like a key turning in a lock. Or falling in love for the first time. That’s why Careers Day is so important, children — it may be the day on which you find YOUR GREAT INTEREST.’ And she had gone on to tell them about her own GREAT INTEREST, which turned out not to be teaching the fourth grade but collecting nineteenth-century postcards.
Todd had thought Mrs Anderson was full of bullspit at the time, but that day in Foxy’s garage, he remembered what she had said and wondered if maybe she hadn’t been right after all.
The Santa Anas had been blowing that day, and to the east there were brush-fires. He remembered the smell of burning, hot and greasy. He remembered Foxy’s crewcut, and the flakes of Butch Wax clinging to the front of it He remembered everything.
‘I know there’s comics here someplace,’ Foxy had said. His mother had a hangover and had kicked them out of the house for making too much noise. ‘Neat ones. They’re Westerns, mostly, but there’s some Turok, Son of Stones and_’
‘What are those?’ Todd asked, pointing at the bulging cardboard cartons under the stairs.
‘Ah, they’re no good,’ Foxy said. ‘True war stories, mostly. Boring.’
‘Can I look at some?’
‘Sure. I’ll find the comics.’
But by the time fat Foxy Pegler found them, Todd no longer wanted to read comics. He was lost. Utterly lost.
It’s like a key turning in a lock. Or falling in love for the first time.
It had been like that. He had known about the war, of course — not the stupid one going on now, where the Americans had gotten the shit kicked out of them by a bunch of gooks in black pyjamas — but World War II. He knew that the Americans wore round helmets with net on them and the Krauts wore sort of square ones. He knew that the Americans won most of the battles and that the Germans had invented rockets near the end and shot them from Germany onto London. He had even known something about the concentration camps.
The difference between all of that and what he found in the magazines under the stairs in Foxy’s garage was like the difference between being told about germs and then actually seeing them in a microscope, squirming around and alive.