“I know I can’t ask.”
“That’s correct. On the other hand, I don’t know what purpose it would serve. Believe it or not, just because you ‘done me wrong’ doesn’t mean I’d turn around and do likewise. Is there anything else?”
Dixie shook her head. “I should probably go.” She picked up her handbag and began to search for her keys. “I know he invited you to dinner. Eric’s always been fond of you. .”
I thought, He has?
“He’s anxious to have you over, and I hope you’ll agree. He might think it odd if you refused the invitation.”
“Would you give it a rest. I haven’t seen either one of you in fourteen years, so why would it seem odd?”
“Just think about it. Please? He said he’d probably call you early in the week.”
“All right. I’ll consider it, but no guarantees. It seems awkward to me.”
“It doesn’t have to be.” She stood and held out a hand to me. “Thank you.”
I shook hands with her, though I wondered in the moment if we’d made some unspoken pact. She moved to the door, turning back, her hand on the knob.
“How’d you do in the search for Mickey? Any luck?” she asked.
“The day after I talked to you, a couple of LAPD detectives showed up on my doorstep. He was shot last week. ”
“He’s dead?”
“He’s alive but in bad shape. He may not survive.”
“That’s awful. That’s terrible. What happened?”
“Who knows? That’s why they drove up here to talk to me.”
“Have they made an arrest?”
“Not yet. All I know about it is what they told me so far. He was found on the street a couple of blocks from his apartment. This was Wednesday of last week. He’s been in a coma ever since.”
“I’m, I don’t know what to say.”
“There’s nothing required.”
“Will you let me know what you hear?”
“Why would I do that?”
In a fragile voice, she said, “Please?”
I didn’t bother to reply. Then she was gone, leaving me staring at the door. I resented her thinking she had equal grieving rights. More than that, I wondered what she was really up to.
FIFTEEN.
Friday morning, I woke up at 5:58, feeling logy and out of sorts. Every bone in my body was begging for more sleep, but I pushed aside the covers and reached for my sweats. I brushed my teeth and ran a comb through my hair, which was sticking out in all directions as though electrified. I paused near the gate and did an obligatory stretch. I started with a fast walk and then broke into a trot when I reached the beachfront park that runs along Cabana Boulevard.
The morning sky was dense with cloud cover, the air hazy. Without the full range of sunlight, all the warm reds and yellows had been leached from the landscape, leaving a muted palette of cool tones: blues, grays, taupe, dun, smoky green. The breeze blowing off the beach smelled of wharf pilings and seaweed. In the course of my run, I could feel the interior fog begin to lift. Intense exercise is the only legal high I know, except for love, of course. Whatever your inner state, all you have to do is run, walk, ride a bike, ski, lift weights, and suddenly your optimism’s back and life seems good again.
Once recovered from my run, I drove over to the gym, which is seldom crowded at that hour, the prework fanatics having already come and gone. The gym itself is spartan, painted gunmetal gray, with industrial carpeting the same color as the asphalt in the parking lot outside. There are huge plate-glass mirrors on the walls. The air smells of rubber and sweaty armpits. The prime patrons are men in various stages of physical fitness. The women who show up tend to fall into two categories: the extremely lean fitness fiends, who trash themselves daily, and the softer women who arrive after any food-dominated holiday. The latter never last, but good for them anyway. Better to make some effort than do nothing for life. I fell somewhere between.
I started with leg extensions and leg curls, muscles burning as I worked. Abs, lower back, on to the pec deck and chest press, then on to shoulders and arms. Early in a workout, the sheer number of body parts multiplied by sets times the number of repetitions is daunting, but the process is curiously engrossing, pain being what it is. Suddenly I found myself laboring at the last two machines, alternating biceps and triceps. Then I was out the door again, sweaty and exhilarated. Sometimes I nearly wrench my arm from its socket patting myself on the back.
Home again, I turned on the automatic coffeepot, made the bed, showered, dressed, and ate a bowl of cereal with skim milk. Then I sat with my coffee and read the local paper. Usually, as the day wears on, my flirtation with good health is overrun by my tendency to self-abuse, especially when it comes to junk food. Fat grams are my downfall, anything with salt, additives, cholesterol, nitrates. Breaded and deep-fried or sauteed in butter, smothered in cheese, slathered with mayonnaise, dripping with meat juices-what foodstuff couldn’t be improved by proper preparation? By the time I finished reading the paper, I was nearly dizzy with hunger and had to suck down more coffee to dampen my appetite. After that, all it took was a big gob of crunchy peanut butter I licked from the spoon while I settled at my desk. I’d decided to skip the office as I’d dutifully caught up with paperwork the day before.
I placed Detective Aldo’s business card on the desk in front of me and put a call through to Mark Bethel. I’d actually given up hope of ever speaking to him in person. Sure enough, he’d popped down to Los Angeles for a campaign appearance. I told Judy about Mickey and she went through the usual litany, expressing concern, shock, and dismay at life’s uncertainties.
“Can Mark do anything to help?” she asked.
“That’s why I called. Would you ask him if he’d talk to Detective Aldo and find out what’s going on? They’re not going to tell me, but they might talk to him since he’s Mickey’s attorney, or at least he was.”
“I’m sure he’d do that. Do you have a number?”
I recited the number and gave her Detective Felix Claas’s name as well. I also gave her Mickey’s address in Culver City.
She said, “I’m making a note. He should be calling when he’s finished. Maybe he can touch base with Detective Aldo while he’s still in Los Angeles.”
“Thanks. That’d be great.”
“Is that it?”
“Just one more thing. Can you ask Mark what’s going to happen to Mickey’s bills? I’m sure they’re piling up, and I hate to see his credit get any worse than it is.”
“Got it. I’ll ask. He’ll think of something, I’m sure. I’ll have him call you when he gets in.”
“No need for that unless he has a question. just let him know what we talked about and he can take it from there.”
I sat at my desk, wondering what to do next. Once more, I hauled out the assorted items I’d lifted from Mickey’s and studied them one by one. Phone bill, the Delta Airlines ticket envelope, receipts from the Honky-Tonk, savings passbooks, phony documents. Emmett Vanover, Delbert Amburgey, Clyde Byler, all with trumped-up personal data and a photo of Mickey’s face plastered in the relevant spots. I went back to the plane ticket, which was issued in the name Magruder. The flight coupons were missing, I assumed, used for the trip, but the passenger receipt and itinerary were still in the ticket envelope. This was an expensive round trip for a guy with no job. What was the relevance, if any? The trip to Louisville might have been personal. Hard to know about that, since we hadn’t talked in years. I laid the ticket on the desk beside the other items, lining them up in various configurations as though a story could be fabricated from the proper sequence of events.
When I was a kid, my Aunt Gin kept me supplied with activity books. The paper was always cheap, the games and puzzles designed to shut me up temporarily so she could read for an hour without my interrupting. I’d lie on the trailer floor with my big pencil and a box of crayons. Sometimes the instructions would entail the finding and circling of particular words in a gridwork of letters, sometimes a search for specific objects in a convoluted jungle picture. My favorite was dot-to-dot, in which you constructed a picture by connecting consecutively numbered points on the page. Tongue peeking out of the corner of my mouth, I’d laboriously trace the line from number to number until a picture emerged. I got so good at it, I could stare at the spaces between numbers and see the picture without ever setting pencil to paper. This didn’t require much in the way of brains as the outline was usually simple: a teddy bear or a wagon or a baby duck, all dumb. Nonetheless, I can still remember the rush of joy when recognition dawned. Little did I know that at the age of five I was already in training for my later professional life.