And he will need to be deceived for, not long after I had begun writing on this very skin, the holy Sansum came into the room. He stood at the window, peered at the bleak sky and rubbed his thin hands together. “I like the cold,” he said, knowing that I do not.
“I feel it worst,” I responded gently, ‘in my missing hand.” It is my left hand that is missing and I am using the wrist’s knobbly stump to steady the parchment as I write.
“All pain is a blessed reminder of our dear Lord’s Passion,” the Bishop said, just as I had expected, then he leaned on the table to look at what I had written. “Tell me what the words say, Derfel,” he demanded.
“I am writing,” I lied, ‘the story of the Christ-child’s birth.”
He stared at the skin, then placed a dirty fingernail on his own name. He can decipher some letters and his own name must have stood out from the parchment as stark as a raven in the snow. Then he cackled like a wicked child and twisted a hank of my white hair in his fingers. “I was not present at our Lord’s birth, Derfel, yet that is my name. Are you writing heresy, you toad of hell?”
“Lord,” I said humbly as his grip kept my face bowed close over my work, “I have started the Gospel by recording that it is only by the grace of Our Lord Jesus Christ and with the permission of His most holy saint, Sansum’ and here I edged my finger toward his name ‘that I am able to write down this good news of Christ Jesus.”
He tugged at my hair, pulling some free, then stepped away. “You are the spawn of a Saxon whore,” he said, ‘and no Saxon could ever be trusted. Take care, Saxon, not to offend me.”
“Gracious Lord,” I said to him, but he did not stay to hear more. There was a time when he bowed his knee to me and kissed my sword, but now he is a saint and I am nothing but the most miserable of sinners. And a cold sinner too, for the light beyond our walls is hollow, grey and full of threat. The first snow will fall very soon.
And there was snow when Arthur’s tale began. It was a lifetime ago, in the last year of High King Uther’s reign. That year, as the Romans used to reckon time, was 1233 years after the founding of their city, though we in Britain usually date our years from the Black Year which was when the Romans cut down the Druids on Ynys Mon. By that reckoning Arthur’s story begins in the year 420, though Sansum, may God bless him, numbers our era from the date of our Lord Jesus Christ’s birth which he believes happened 480 winters before these things began. But however you count the years it was long ago, once upon a time, in a land called Britain, and I was there.
And this is how it was.
It began with a birth.
On a bitter night, when the kingdom lay still and white beneath a waning moon.
And in the hall, Norwenna screamed.
And screamed.
It was midnight. The sky was clear, dry and brilliant with stars. The land was frozen hard as iron, its streams gripped by ice. The waning moon was a bad omen and in its sullen light the long western lands seemed to glow with a pale cold shimmer. No snow had fallen for three days, nor had there been any thaw, so all the world was white except where the trees had been windblown free of snow and now stood black and intricate against the winter-bleak land. Our breath misted, but did not blow away for there was no wind in this clear midnight. The earth seemed dead and still, as if she had been abandoned by Belenos the Sun God and left to drift in the endless cold void between the worlds. And cold it was; a bitter, deadly cold. Icicles hung long from the eaves of Caer Cadarn’s great hall and from the arched gateway where, earlier that day, the High King’s entourage had struggled through drifted snow to bring our Princess to this high place of kings. Caer Cadarn was where the royal stone was kept; it was the place of acclamation and thus the only place, the High King insisted, where his heir could be born.