A22 cried. “Your mother lives and her life is mine. You hear me, Saxon?” He leered at me from inside his circle and his ancient face was shadowed by the temple’s twin fires, which gave his eyes a red, feral threat. “You hear me?” he cried again. “Your mother’s soul is mine! I coupled with her to make it so! I made the two-backed beast with her and drew her blood to make her soul mine. Touch me, Saxon, and your mother’s soul goes to the fire-dragons. She will be crushed by the ground, burned by the air, choked by the water and thrust into pain for evermore. And not just her soul, Saxon, but the soul of every living thing that ever slithered from her loins. I put her blood into the ground, Saxon, and slid my power into her belly.” He laughed and raised his staff high towards the temple’s beamed roof. “Touch me, Saxon, and the curse will take her life and through her life yours.” He lowered the staff so it pointed at me again. “But let me go, and you and she will live.”
I stopped at the circle’s edge. The skulls did not make a ghost-fence, but there was still a dreadful power in their array. I could feel that power like unseen wings battering great strokes to baffle me. Cross the skull-circle, I thought, and I would enter the Gods’ playground to contend against things I could not imagine, let alone understand. Tanaburs saw my uncertainty and smiled in triumph. “Your mother is mine, Saxon,” he crooned, ‘made mine, all mine, her blood and soul and body are mine, and that makes you mine for you were born in blood and pain from my body.” He moved his staff so that its moon tip touched my breast. “Shall I take you to her, Saxon? She knows you live and a two-day journey will bring you back to her.” He smiled wickedly. “You are mine,” he cried, ‘all mine! I am your mother and your father, your soul and your life. I made the charm of oneness on your mother’s womb and you are now my son! Ask her!” He twitched his staff towards Nimue. “She knows that charm.”
Nimue said nothing, but just stared balefully at Gundleus while I looked into the Druid’s horrid eyes. I was frightened to cross his circle, terrified by his threats, but then, in a sickening rush, the events of that long-ago night came back to me as if they had happened just yesterday. I remembered my mother’s cries and I remembered her pleading with the soldiers to leave me at her side and I remembered the spearmen laughing and striking her head with their spear-staves, and I remembered this cackling Druid with the hares and moons on his robe and the bones in his hair and I remembered how he had lifted me and fondled me and said what a fine gift for the Gods I would make. All that I remembered, just as I remembered being lifted up, screaming for my mother who could not help me, and I remembered being carried through the twin lines of fire where the warriors danced and the women moaned, and I remembered Tanaburs holding me high above his tonsured head as he walked to the edge of a pit that was a black circle in the earth surrounded by fires whose flames burned bright enough to illuminate the blood-smeared tip of a sharpened stake that protruded from the bowels of the round dark pit. The memories were like pain serpents biting at my soul as I remembered the bloody scraps of flesh and skin hanging from the fire lit stake and the half-comprehended horror of the broken bodies that writhed in slow pitiful agony as they died in the bloody darkness of this Druid’s death-pit. And I remembered how I still screamed for my mother as Tanaburs lifted me to the stars and prepared to give me to his Gods. “To Gofannon,” he had shouted, and my mother screamed as she was raped and I screamed because I knew I was going to die, ‘to Lleullaw,” Tanaburs shouted, ‘to Cernunnos, to Taranis, to Sucellos, to Bel!” And on that last great name he had hurled me down on to the killing stake.