Cassi glossed over the evening. There was a chance Robert would hear what had happened on the hospital grapevine, but she didn’t want to bring it up. In many ways Cassi was surprised Robert hadn’t noticed her reddened eyes. He was usually so observant. She decided he was understandably preoccupied with his admission to the hospital. Promising to visit the next day, Cassi left before she was tempted to burden him with her own troubles.
Larry Owen felt like a piano wire drawn out to its limit, ready to snap at the slightest increase in tension. Thomas Kingsley had arrived late that morning and was furious that Larry had waited for him to physically appear before beginning to open the first patient’s chest. Even though Larry completed the procedure with record speed, Thomas’s foul mood had not changed. Nothing pleased the surgeon. Not only had Larry done a piss-poor job, but the scrub nurses weren’t handing him the instruments properly; the residents weren’t giving him adequate exposure, and the anesthesiologist was an incompetent son of a bitch. As chance would have it, Thomas was given a faulty needle holder, which he’d thrown against the wall with such force it had snapped in two.
Yet Larry had weathered this kind of abuse before. What was making him crazy was Thomas’s operative performance. It had been obvious from the moment he began work on his first patient that the surgeon was exhausted.
His usually flawless coordination was off and his judgment faulty. And worst of all, Thomas had an uncontrollable tremor. It almost gave Larry heart failure to watch Thomas bend over the heart with a razor-sharp needle and try to direct the instrument to the dainty piece of saphenous vein he was attempting to sew to the minute coronary vessel.
Vainly Larry had hoped the tremor would lessen as the morning progressed, Instead it got worse.
“Would you like me to sew this one on?” asked Larry on several occasions. “I think I can see a bit better from my position.”
“If I want your help, I’ll ask for it,” was Thomas’s only reply.
Somehow they got through the first two cases with the bypasses sewn reasonably in place and the patients off the heart-lung machine. But Larry was not looking forward to the third case, a thirty-eight-year-old married man with two little children. Larry had opened the patient’s chest and was waiting for Kingsley to return from the lounge. The resident’s pulse was racing, and he had begun sweating heavily. When Thomas finally burst through the OR door, Larry felt his stomach knot with fear.
At first, things went reasonably well, although Thomas’s shaking was no better and his frustration level seemed even lower. But the open-heart team, wary after the first two cases, was careful not to cross him in any way. The hardest job fell to Larry, who tried to anticipate Kingsley’s erratic movements and do as much of the actual work as Thomas would allow him. The real trouble didn’t begin until they’d started sewing the bypasses in place. Larry couldn’t watch and turned his head away as Thomas’s needle holder approached the heart.
“Goddammit,” shouted Thomas.
Larry felt his stomach churn as he saw Thomas yank his hand from the operative site, the needle buried in his own index finger. Inadvertently Thomas also pulled out one of the large catheters that took blood from the patient to the heart-lung machine. As if a faucet had been turned on, the wound filled with blood and in seconds began soaking the sterile drapes and dripping onto the floor.
Desperately Larry plunged his hand into the wound and groped blindly for the clamp holding the suture around the vena cava. Luckily his hand hit it immediately. Deftly he pulled up on the tape and the blood loss slowed.
“If I had decent exposure this kind of problem wouldn’t happen,” raged Thomas, pulling the needle out of his finger and dropping it on the floor. He stepped back from the table nursing his injured hand.
Larry managed to suck out the blood from the wound. As he reinserted the catheter from the heart-lung machine, he tried to think what he should do. Thomas wasn’t fit to operate anymore that day, yet to say anything risked professional suicide. In the end Larry decided that he could no longer stand the tension. When he’d secured the operative site, he stepped away from the table and joined Thomas, who was being regloved by Miss Goldberg.