“Mark, Amy, your father was my friend,” he said gently. “It was my honor to work for him and help him as best I could–but you know, he was probably even more help for me. I know you always had to understand that Dad and Mom had important jobs, and didn’t always have time for the really important things, but I can tell you that your father did everything he could to spend time with you, because he loved you more than anything in the world, more than being President, more than all the things that came along with that, more than anything–except maybe your Mom. He loved her a lot, too. . . .”
WHAT RUBBISH! YES, one cared for children. Daryaei did, but children grew to adulthood no matter what. Their place was to learn, and to serve, and someday to do the deeds of adults. Until then, they were children, and the
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world told them what must be. Fate did. Allah did. Allah was merciful, even though life was hard. He had to admit that the Jew had spoken well, citing scripture quoted exactly the same way in their Torah and his Holy Koran. He would have chosen a different passage, but that was a matter of taste, wasn’t it? Theology allowed such things. It had all been a wasted exercise, but formal occasions such as this usually were. This Ryan fool was wasting his chance to rally his nation, to appear strong and sure, thus to consolidate his hold on his government. Talking to children at such a time!
HIS POLITICAL HANDLERS must be having a collective heart attack, the Prime Minister thought, and it required all of the self-control learned over a political lifetime to keep her face composed. Then she decided to change her expression to sympathy. After all, he might be watching her, and she was a woman and a mother, after all, and she would be meeting with him later today. She tilted her head slightly to the right, so as to give herself a better view of the scene and the man. He might like that, too. In another minute or so, she’d pull a tissue from her purse to wipe her eyes.
“I wish I’d had the chance to get to know your mom better. Cathy and I were looking forward to that. I wanted Sally and Jack and Katie and you to become friends. Your dad and I talked a little about that. I guess that won’t be happening the way we wanted it to.” That impromptu thought made Jack’s stomach do a flip. They were crying now, because he’d told them without words that now it was okay to cry. Jack couldn’t let himself do that. Not for the others. He had to be strong now for them, and so he gripped the lectern harder still until his hands really hurt, and he welcomed the pain for the discipline it imposed on him.
“You probably want to know why this had to happen. I don’t know, kids. I wish I did. I wish somebody did, so that I could go to that person for the answers. But I’ve never found that person,” Jack went on.
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“JESUS,” CLARK MANAGED to say in the grumbly voice that men used to prevent a sob. In his CIA office, as with all senior officials, was a TV set, and every channel was covering this. “Yeah, I’ve looked once or twice myself, man.”
“You know something, John?” Chavez was under more control. It was a man’s place to be calm at such times, so that the women and kids could cling to him. Or so his culture told him. Mr. C., on the other hand, was just full of surprises. As always.
“What’s that, Domingo?”
“He gets it. We’re working for somebody who gets it.”
John turned at that. Who’d believe it? Two CIA paramilitary officers, thinking the same thoughts as their President. It was nice to know that he’d read Ryan correctly from the first moment. Damn, just like his dad. A pity Fate had denied him the chance to know that Ryan. He next wondered if Jack would succeed as President. He wasn’t acting like one of the others. He was acting like a real person. But why was that so bad? Clark asked himself.
“1 WANT YOU to know that you can come to Cathy and me whenever you want. You’re not alone. You will never be alone. You have your family with you, and now you have my family, too,” he promised them from the pulpit. It just got harder. He had to say what he’d just said. Roger was a friend, and you looked after their kids when you had to. He’d done it for Buck Zimmer’s family, and now he’d do it for Roger’s.
“I want you to be proud of Mom and Dad. Your father was a fine man, a good friend. He worked very hard to make things better for people. It was a big job, and it denied him a lot of time with you, but your father was a big man, and big men do big things. Your mother was always there, too, and she also did big things. Kids, you will always have them in your heart. Remember all the things they told you, all the little things, and the games, and the tricks, and the jokes, all the ways moms and dads show
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love for their children. You will never lose that. Never,” Jack assured them, stretching and hoping for something that could soften the blow Fate had dealt them. He couldn’t find anything better. It was time to end it.
“Mark, Amy, God decided He wanted your mom and dad back. He doesn’t explain why in ways that are easy for us to understand, and we can’t … we can’t fight it when that happens. We just can’t–” Ryan’s voice finally cracked.
HOW COURAGEOUS OF the man, Koga thought, to allow his emotions to show. Anyone could have stood up there and spoken the usual political drivel, and most would have–in or from any country–but this Ryan wasn’t like that at all. Speaking to the children in this way was brilliant–or so he’d thought at the outset. But it wasn’t that at all. Inside the President was a man. He wasn’t an actor. He didn’t care about showing strength and resolve. And Koga knew why. More than anyone else in this church, Koga knew what Ryan was made of. He’d guessed right in his own office a few days before. Ryan was samurai, and even more. He did what he did, not caring what others thought. The Japanese Prime Minister hoped that wasn’t a mistake as he watched the President of the United States come down the steps, then approach the Durling children. He embraced them, and the audience watched tears well up on Ryan’s face. There were sobs around him in the chiefs-of-state seating, but he knew that most of those were forced or feigned–or at most brief, fleeting moments of residual humanity, soon to be forgotten. He regretted that he couldn’t join in that, but the rules of his culture were stern, all the more so as he bore the shame of one of his citizens having caused this monstrous tragedy. He had to play the political game, much as he would have preferred otherwise, and it wasn’t so much that Ryan didn’t have to play the game as that he didn’t care. He wondered if America realized her good fortune.
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“HE DIDN’T USE his prepared speech at all,” the anchorman objected. The speech had been distributed to all the news networks, and all the copies had been highlighted and excerpted already so that the reporters could repeat favored passages, so to reinforce the important things the President had to say for the viewing public. Instead the anchor had been forced to take notes, which he did badly, long past his time as a working reporter.
“You’re right,” the commentator reluctantly agreed. Things just weren’t done this way. On his monitor, Ryan was still holding the Burling children, and that was going too long as well. “I guess the President decided that this was an important personal moment for them–”
“And it surely is,” the anchorman inserted.
“But Mr. Ryan’s job is to govern a nation.” The commentator shook his head, clearly thinking something he couldn’t say quite yet: not presidential.
JACK HAD TO let go, finally. There was only hurt in their eyes now. The objective part of his mind thought that was probably good–they had to let it out–but that made it no easier to see, for children of that age weren’t supposed to have such things at all. But these children did, and there was nothing to be done for it but to try, somehow, to ease the pain. He looked over at the uncles and aunts who’d accompanied them. They were weeping also, but through their tears he saw a grateful look, and that, at least, told him that he’d done something. Nodding, he turned to return to his seat. Cathy looked at him, and there were tears in her eyes, too, and though she couldn’t speak, she gripped his hand. Jack saw one more example of his wife’s intelligence. She’d worn no eye makeup to run from her tears. Inwardly, he smiled. He didn’t like makeup, and his wife didn’t really need it.