The Trial by Franz Kafka

completion of this plea was a sheer impossibility. Not because of laziness or obstructive

malice, which could only hinder Dr. Huld, but because to meet an unknown accusation, not

to mention other possible charges arising out of it, the whole of one’s life would have to be

recalled to mind, down to the smallest actions and accidents, clearly formulated and

examined from every angle. And besides how dreary such a task would be! It would do

well enough, perhaps, as an occupation for one’s second childhood in years of retirement,

when the long days needed filling up. But now, when K. should be devoting his mind

entirely to work, when every hour was hurried and crowded — for he was still in full career

and rapidly becoming a rival even to the Assistant Manager — when his evenings and

nights were all too short for the pleasures of a bachelor life, this was the time when he

must sit down to such a task! Once more his train of thought had led him into self-pity.

Almost involuntarily, simply to make an end of it, he put his finger on the button which

rang the bell in the waiting-room. While he pressed it he glanced at the clock. It was

eleven o’clock, he had wasted two hours in dreaming, a long stretch of precious time, and

he was, of course, still wearier than he had been before. Yet the time had not been quite

lost, he had come to decisions which might prove valuable. The attendants brought in

several letters and two cards from gentlemen who had been waiting for a considerable

time. They were, in fact, extremely important clients of the Bank who should on no

account have been kept waiting at all. Why had they come at such an unsuitable hour? —

and why, they might well be asking in their turn behind the door, did the assiduous K.

allow his private affairs to usurp the best time of the day? Weary of what had gone before

and wearily awaiting what was to come, K. got up to receive the first of his clients.

This was the jovial little man, a manufacturer whom K. knew well. He regretted having disturbed K. in the middle of important work and K. on his side regretted that he

had kept the manufacturer waiting for so long. But his very regret he expressed in such a

mechanical way, with such a lack of sincerity in his tone of voice, that the manufacturer

could not have helped noticing it, had he not been so engrossed by the business in hand. As

it was, he tugged papers covered with statistics out of every pocket, spread them before K.,

explained various entries, corrected a trifling error which his eye had caught even in this

hasty survey, reminded K. of a similar transaction which he had concluded with him about

a year before, mentioned casually that this time another bank was making great sacrifices

to secure the deal, and finally sat in eager silence waiting for K.’s comments. K. had

actually followed the man’s argument quite closely in its early stages — the thought of such

an important piece of business had its attractions for him too — but unfortunately not for

long; he had soon ceased to listen and merely nodded now and then as the manufacturer’s

claims waxed in enthusiasm, until in the end he forgot to show even that much interest and

confined himself to staring at the other’s bald head bent over the papers and asking himself

when the fellow would begin to realize that all his eloquence was being wasted. When the

manufacturer stopped speaking, K. actually thought for a moment that the pause was

intended to give him the chance of confessing that he was not in a fit state to attend to

business. And it was with regret that he perceived the intent look on the manufacturer’s

face, the alertness, as if prepared for every objection, which indicated that the interview

would have to continue. So he bowed his head as at a word of command and began slowly

to move his pencil point over the papers, pausing here and there to stare at some figure.

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