And she said, “Nay, there is no pain.”
“Rabbit.”
“Nay, speak not.”
“My rabbit.”
“Speak not. Speak not.”
Then they were together so that as the hand on the watch moved, unseen now, they knew that nothing could ever happen to the one that did not happen to the othei that no other thing could happen more than this; that this was all and always; this was what had been and now and whatever was to come. This, that they were not to have, they were having. They were having now and before and always and now and now and now. Oh, now, now, now, the only now, and above all now, and there is no other now but thou now and now is thy prophet. Now and forever now. Come now, now, for there is no now but now. Yes, now. Now, please now, only now, not anything else only this now, and where are you and where am I and where is the other one, and not why, not ever why, only this now; and on and always please then always now, always now, for now always one now; one only one, there is no other one but one now, one, going now, rising now, sailing now, leaving now, wheeling now, soaring now, away now, all the way now, all of all the way now; one and one is one, is one, is one, is one, is still one, is still one, is one descendingly, is one softly, is one longingly, is one kindly, is one happily, is one in goodness, is one to cherish, is one now on earth with elbows against the cut and slept-on branches of the pine tree with the smell of the pine boughs and the night; to earth conclusively now, and with the morning of the day to come. Then he said, for the other was only in his head and he had said nothing, “Oh, Maria, I love thee and I thank thee for this.”
Maria said, “Do not speak. It is better if we do not speak.”
“I must tell thee for it is a great thing.”
“Nay.”
“Rabbit–”
But she held him tight and turned her head away and he asked softly, “Is it pain, rabbit?”
“Nay,” she said. “It is that I am thankful too to have been another time in la gloria.”
Then afterwards they lay quiet, side by side, all length of ankle, thigh, hip and shoulder touching, Robert Jordan now with the watch where he could see it again and Maria said, “We have had much good fortune.”
“Yes,” he said, “we are people of much luck.”
“There is not time to sleep?”
“No,” he said, “it starts soon now.”
“Then if we must rise let us go to get something to eat.”
“All right.”
“Thou. Thou art not worried about anything?”
“No.”
“Truly?”
“No. Not now.”
“But thou hast worried before?”
“For a while.”
“Is it aught I can help?”
“Nay,” he said. “You have helped enough.”
“That? That was for me.”
“That was for us both,” he said. “No one is there alone. Come, rabbit, let us dress.”
But his mind, that was his best companion, was thinking La Gloria. She said La Gloria. It has nothing to do with glory nor La Gloire that the French write and speak about. It is the thing that is in the Cante Hondo and in the Saetas. It is in Greco and in San Juan de la Cruz, of course, and in the others. I am no mystic, but to deny it is as ignorant as though you denied the telephone or that the earth revolves around the sun or that there are other planets than this.
How little we know of what there is to know. I wish that I were going to live a long time instead of going to die today because I have learned much about life in these four days; more, I think, than in all the other time. I’d like to be an old man and to really know. I wonder if you keep on learning or if there is only a certain amount each man can understand. I thought I knew about so many things that I know nothing of. I wish there was more time.