It wasn’t John Shooter’s imaginary station wagon but Amy’s no-nonsense little Subaru which was just now coming to a stop. Amy was behind the wheel. She had stolen his love, and a woman who would steal your love when your love was really all you had to give was not much of a woman.
He loved her, all the same.
It was Shooter who hated her. It was Shooter who meant to kill her and then bury her down by the lake near Bump. where she would before long be a mystery to both of them.
‘Go away, Amy,’ he whispered in the palsied voice of a very old man. ‘Go away before it’s too late.’
But Amy was getting out of the car, and as she closed the door behind her, the hand pulled the shade in Mort’s head all the way down and he was in darkness.
47
Amy tried the door and found it unlocked. She stepped in, started to call for Mort, and then didn’t. She looked around, wide-eyed and startled.
The place was a mess. The trash can was full and had overflowed onto the floor. A few sluggish autumn flies were crawling in and out of an aluminum pot-pie dish that had been kicked into the corner. She could smell stale cooking and musty air. She thought she could even smell spoiled food.
‘Mort?’
There was no answer. She walked further into the house, taking small steps, not entirely sure she wanted to look at the rest of the place. Mrs Gavin had been in only three days ago – how had things gotten so out of hand since then? What had happened?
She had been worried about Mort during the entire last year of their marriage, but she had been even more worried since the divorce. Worried, and, of course, guilty. She held part of the blame for herself. and supposed she always would. But Mort had never been strong … and his greatest weakness was his stubborn (and sometimes almost hysterical) refusal to recognize the fact. This morning he had sounded like a man on the point of suicide. And the only reason she had heeded his admonition not to bring Ted was because she thought the sight of him might set Mort off if he really was poised on the edge of such an act.
The thought of murder had never crossed her mind, nor did it do so now. Even when he had brandished the gun at them that horrible afternoon at the motel, she had not been afraid. Not of that. Mort was no killer.
‘Mort? M -‘
She came around the kitchen counter and the word died. She stared at the big living room with wide, stunned eyes. Paper was littered everywhere. It looked as if Mort must at some point have exhumed every
copy of every manuscript he had in his desk drawers and in his files and strewn the pages about in here like confetti at some black New Year’s Eve celebration. The table was heaped with dirty dishes. The Silex was lying shattered on the floor by the window-wall, which was cracked.
And everywhere, everywhere, everywhere was one word. The word was SHOOTER.
SHOOTER had been written on the walls in colored chalks he must have taken from her drawer of art supplies. SHOOTER was sprayed on the window twice in what looked like dried whipped cream – and yes, there was the Redi-Whip pressure-can, lying discarded under the stove. SHOOTER was written over and over on the kitchen counters in ink, and on the wooden support posts of the deck on the far side of the house in pencil – a neat column like adding that went down in a straight line and said SHOOTER
SHOOTER SHOOTER SHOOTER.
Worst of all, it had been carved into the polished cherrywood surface of the table in great jagged letters three feet high, like a grotesque declaration of love: SHOOTER.
The screwdriver he had used to do this last was lying on a chair nearby. There was red stuff on its steel shaft – stain from the cherrywood, she assumed.
‘Mort?’ she whispered, looking around.
Now she was frightened that she would find him dead by his own hand. And where? Why, in his study, of course. Where else? He had lived all the most important parts of his life in there; surely he had chosen to die there.
Although she had no wish to go in, no wish to be the one to find him, her feet carried her in that direction all the same. As she went, she kicked the issue of EQMM Herb Creekmore had had sent out of her way.
She did not look down. She reached the study door and pushed it slowly open.
48
Mort stood in front of his old Royal typewriter; the screen-and-keyboard unit of his word processor lay overturned in a bouquet of glass on the floor. He looked strangely like a country preacher. It was partly the posture he had adopted, she supposed; he was standing almost primly with his hands behind his back. But most of it was the hat. The black hat, pulled down so it almost touched the tops of his ears. She thought he looked a little bit like the old man in that picture, ‘American Gothic,’ even though the man in the picture wasn’t wearing a hat.
‘Mort?’ she asked. Her voice was weak and uncertain.
He made no reply, only stared at her. His eyes were grim and glittering. She had never seen Mort’s eyes look this way, not even on the horrible afternoon at the motel. It was almost as if this was not Mort at all, but some stranger who looked like Mort.
She recognized the hat, though.
‘Where did you find that old thing? The attic?’ Her heartbeat was in her voice, making it stagger.
He must have found it in the attic. The smell of mothballs on it was strong, even from where she was standing. Mort had gotten the hat years ago, at a gift shop in Pennsylvania. They had been travelling through Amish country. She had kept a little garden at the Derry house, in the angle where the house and the study addition met. It was her garden, but Mort often went out to weed it when he was stuck for an idea.
He usually wore the hat when he did this. He called it his thinking cap. She remembered him looking at
himself in a mirror once when he was wearing it and joking that he ought to have a bookjacket photo taken in it. ‘When I put this on,’ he’d said, ‘I look like a
man who belongs out in the north forty, walking plow-furrows behind a mule’s ass.’
Then the hat had disappeared. It must have migrated down here and been stored. But…
‘It’s my hat,’ he said at last in a rusty, bemused voice. ‘Wasn’t ever anybody else’s.’
‘Mort? What’s wrong? What’s
‘You got you a wrong number, woman. Ain’t no Mort here. Mort’s dead.’ The gimlet eyes never wavered.
‘He did a lot of squirming around, but in the end he couldn’t lie to himself anymore, let alone to me. I never put a hand on him, Mrs Rainey. I swear. He took the coward’s way out.’
‘Why are you talking that way?’ Amy asked.
‘This is just the way I talk,’ he said with mild surprise. ‘Everybody down in Miss’ippi talks this way.’
‘Mort, stop!’
‘Don’t you understand what I said?’ he asked. ‘You ain’t deaf, are you? He’s dead. He killed himself.’
‘Stop it, Mort,’ she said, beginning to cry. ‘You’re scaring me, and I don’t like it.’
‘Don’t matter,’ he said. He took his hands out from behind his back. In one of them he held the scissors from the top drawer of the desk. He raised them. The sun had come out, and it sent a starfish glitter along the blades as he snicked them open and then closed. ‘You won’t be scared long.’ He began walking toward her.
49
For a moment she stood where she was. Mort would not kill her; if there had been killing in Mort, then surely he would have done some that day at the motel.
Then she saw the look in his eyes and understood that Mort knew that, too.
But this wasn’t him.
She screamed and wheeled around and lunged for the door.
Shooter came after her, bringing the scissors down in a silver arc. He would have buried them up to the handles between her shoulderblades if his feet had not slid on the papers scattered about the hardwood floor. He fell full-length with a cry of mingled perplexity and anger. The blades stabbed down through page nine of ‘Secret Window, Secret Garden’ and the tips broke off. His mouth struck the floor and sprayed blood. The package of Pall Malls – the brand John Kintner had silently smoked during the breaks halfway through the writing class he and Mort Rainey had shared – shot out of his pocket and slid along the slick wood like the weight in a barroom shuffleboard game. He got up on his knees, his mouth snarling and smiling through the blood which ran over his lips and teeth.