The Secret Agent by Joseph Conrad

incapable of hurting a fly intentionally. So when that name

cropped up suddenly in this vexing bomb affair he realised all the

danger of it for the ticket-of-leave apostle, and his mind reverted

at once to the old lady’s well-established infatuation. Her

arbitrary kindness would not brook patiently any interference with

Michaelis’ freedom. It was a deep, calm, convinced infatuation.

She had not only felt him to be inoffensive, but she had said so,

which last by a confusion of her absolutist mind became a sort of

incontrovertible demonstration. It was as if the monstrosity of

the man, with his candid infant’s eyes and a fat angelic smile, had

fascinated her. She had come to believe almost his theory of the

future, since it was not repugnant to her prejudices. She disliked

the new element of plutocracy in the social compound, and

industrialism as a method of human development appeared to her

singularly repulsive in its mechanical and unfeeling character.

The humanitarian hopes of the mild Michaelis tended not towards

utter destruction, but merely towards the complete economic ruin of

the system. And she did not really see where was the moral harm of

it. It would do away with all the multitude of the “parvenus,”

whom she disliked and mistrusted, not because they had arrived

anywhere (she denied that), but because of their profound

unintelligence of the world, which was the primary cause of the

crudity of their perceptions and the aridity of their hearts. With

the annihilation of all capital they would vanish too; but

universal ruin (providing it was universal, as it was revealed to

Michaelis) would leave the social values untouched. The

disappearance of the last piece of money could not affect people of

position. She could not conceive how it could affect her position,

for instance. She had developed these discoveries to the Assistant

Commissioner with all the serene fearlessness of an old woman who

had escaped the blight of indifference. He had made for himself

the rule to receive everything of that sort in a silence which he

took care from policy and inclination not to make offensive. He

had an affection for the aged disciple of Michaelis, a complex

sentiment depending a little on her prestige, on her personality,

but most of all on the instinct of flattered gratitude. He felt

himself really liked in her house. She was kindness personified.

And she was practically wise too, after the manner of experienced

women. She made his married life much easier than it would have

been without her generously full recognition of his rights as

Annie’s husband. Her influence upon his wife, a woman devoured by

all sorts of small selfishnesses, small envies, small jealousies,

was excellent. Unfortunately, both her kindness and her wisdom

were of unreasonable complexion, distinctly feminine, and difficult

to deal with. She remained a perfect woman all along her full tale

of years, and not as some of them do become – a sort of slippery,

pestilential old man in petticoats. And it was as of a woman that

he thought of her – the specially choice incarnation of the

feminine, wherein is recruited the tender, ingenuous, and fierce

bodyguard for all sorts of men who talk under the influence of an

emotion, true or fraudulent; for preachers, seers, prophets, or

reformers.

Appreciating the distinguished and good friend of his wife, and

himself, in that way, the Assistant Commissioner became alarmed at

the convict Michaelis’ possible fate. Once arrested on suspicion

of being in some way, however remote, a party to this outrage, the

man could hardly escape being sent back to finish his sentence at

least. And that would kill him; he would never come out alive.

The Assistant Commissioner made a reflection extremely unbecoming

his official position without being really creditable to his

humanity.

“If the fellow is laid hold of again,” he thought, “she will never

forgive me.”

The frankness of such a secretly outspoken thought could not go

without some derisive self-criticism. No man engaged in a work he

does not like can preserve many saving illusions about himself.

The distaste, the absence of glamour, extend from the occupation to

the personality. It is only when our appointed activities seem by

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