A Darkness in my Soul by Dean R. Koontz

play for full stakes and keep me locked in Child’s body, he

might very well wind up with nothing. And military

careers are not built on blunders.

“Bring him along,” he ordered the doctor. “We’ll let

him have his body back.” He smiled at me, but it was not

a pleasant smile. “But you’d better cooperate, Kelly. It’s

time of war now, and that rules out your brand of

frivolity.”

“I understand perfectly,” I said, not without a touch of

sarcasm.

“I’m sure you do.”

And he left the room.

Minutes later, they wheeled me into the corridor to

keep my rendezvous with my own coma-ridden flesh. . . .

All the while, I gloried in the thought that I was swiftly

getting the upper hand and that before they realized what

had happened, I would be in my former position of

dominance. There were two minds’ worth of energy within

me, plus the complex intellect of Child now amplifying my

own. They were mere men, I told myself, and they stood

no chance at all.

I did not realize that I was making the same mistake

that I had made twice before. In the old days, I had

convinced myself that I was a god of sorts, the Second

Coming, and my life had been disastrous because of that

fantasy. In Child’s subconscious, I had eagerly sought to

be transformed into the mythic images of Tibetan wolves,

into something transcending humanity, and that might

have cost me my mind and my eventual recovery. And

now, as I was wheeled down the corridor, I again looked at

myself as more than a man, as a minor god soon to prove

his power. Because I had never allowed myself to associ-

ate with “mere men,” I did not understand them, or

myself. And my latest delusions of grandeur were bound

to lead to ultimate disaster….

And did…

II

My legs were cramped, and even a slight bit of move-

ment made my shoulders ache, for the staff had not been

exercising my body with the proper degree of enthusiasm

during the month it had been vacant. I felt weak, and my

stomach was a hard knot. Having been fed intravenously

for some four weeks, the stomach had shrunk and felt like

a clenched fist in there, squeezing my guts. Otherwise:

fine. And since it was such a delight to be housed in my

own flesh once again, I was willing to overlook the little

aches and pains of readjustment to life. I didn’t complain,

and I tried not even to grimace.

Morsfagen seemed disappointed by that.

They wheeled Child’s carcass out of the room. It would

continue to live, though it would never exhibit intelligence

again. It was a husk, nothing more. I still had not told

them, for I was still not free of the AC complex and out

of their immediate reach. Morsfagen would not take kind-

ly to such a trick, and I didn’t want to be around whenev-

er he discovered it.

I showered, washed away the weeks of sickbed smell.

The hot water seemed to loosen my cramped muscles, and

dressing was only half the ordeal I had expected. When I

slipped into my jacket and checked my reflection in the

mirror, Morsfagen said, “Your shyster is waiting down-

stairs.”

I held back the witty reply designed to demolish him,

for I knew that was exactly what he wanted. He was

searching for some reason to slap me down, either with

his fists or with a preventive detention arrest. Why we had

hit it off so miserably from the start, and why our hatred

for each other was now twice what it had been, I didn’t

know. True, we were altogether different types, but the

antagonism we felt for each other was deeper and more

unremitting than a mere clash of personalities.

“Thank you,” I said, leaving him with nothing to at-

tack. I walked to the door, opened it, and was halfway

into the corridor before he replied.

“You’re welcome.”

I turned and looked at him and saw that he was smiling,

that same cold smile of hatred which I had grown used to

by then. He had said “you’re welcome,” but not with any

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