A Darkness in my Soul by Dean R. Koontz

brightly. The soldier screamed, struck at the mutant’s

face, smashed the jawbone. The mouth relaxed, released

him, but the mutant was still awake, still struggled to gain

control of itself and of the situation it found itself in.

“You did this!” Morsfagen roared, turning on me, point-

ing with a hand that trembled uncontrollably.

“No,” I said quietly.

“You’ll pay! Damn you, you’ll see the woman raped for

this, you’ll see her humiliated!”

I could not even summon up the slightest bit of disgust

for him. I looked with the eyes of the man I had been, but

with the judgment of a god, and I could do no more than

pity him. In a way, I resented my benevolence. I had

longed for the power to strike back with thunder and with

lightning. But now that the time had come, I found him

deserving of scorn and pity more than wrathful venge-

ance.

“What is wrong with him?” he asked, shoving his broad

face square into mine.

I knew exactly what was happening with Child’s husk,

though the rest of them could never possibly strike upon

the truth. When I had left that shell, I had momentarily

forgotten something which I should have remembered.

There was still one portion of Child’s mind down there in

the black waste of his body: the id. All those scorpion

analogues which I had dispersed in the ice-floored subter-

ranean cavern so long ago were now risen up and in

command of the mutant flesh. Normally the most directly

impotent of the mind’s factions, it now reigned without

control, without opposition. But the id alone was not a

functioning consciousness and could never hope to control

the body: the Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde syndrome was a

complete impossibility, something that could only exist in

fiction. The mutant husk would die now, days after its

mental expiration, with the scorpion-clawed id seeking con-

trol to gratify its sex lusts and its blood longings.

“Everyone grab him at once!” Morsfagen directed,

leading the others in on the bed.

The mutant thrashed wildly, pitched from side to side of

the bed. Finally, it grasped the rails and clambered against

them, flung itself over the side. It crashed onto the floor

with a sickening crunch of flimsy bones, biting at the air,

spitting blood across the tiles, clawing and weakly kicking

at anyone who tried to bend to it, or to give it assistance

in its time of need. To the id, there was no such thing as a

friend, and it acted accordingly.

Then it succumbed.

Quietly, like a sigh.

Motionless on the hospital floor, with smears of blood

marking the space around it, it seemed more like a squashed

insect than the ex-home of a human creature.

They stared at the corpse for a long while, transfixed,

perhaps, by its inhumanness. Then Morsfagen turned to

look at me with the malevolence I had once despised.

“You killed him,” he said matter-of-factly, beyond ha-

tred now. He turned to the soldier named Larry. “Arrest

him. Get that bastard out of my sight!”

Larry lifted his gun, grinning. He enjoyed using it too

much. As he advanced on me like a homicidal maniac, I

began to think that even the mindless shell of the mutant

had been more human that this boy. Behind those eyes,

there was something a little less than a man.

“Stop where you are,” I said.

But he did not, of course.

I reached out for him, touched him, took him. His face

went utterly blank, and he ceased his advance.

“What the hell—” Morsfagen began.

With other esp fingers, I touched the minds of everyone

in that room and delivered them into a state of sleep

which was not quite sleep, closer to death but not quite

death. There, they would be far out of my way so that I

might concentrate on the work ahead. Cautiously, I en-

tered their minds with an ability I had never had before:

neither in scope nor in power. I spread out their lives,

their neuroses and psychoses, and I carefully untangled the

knots that had warped each man and woman’s psyche

over the years. When they woke, they would be emotion-

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