A Darkness in my Soul by Dean R. Koontz

ally and mentally stable for the first time. The old fears

and worries would no longer plague them, and their per-

sonalities (which had been structured all their lives to

nurture the needs which were produced by those fears and

worries) would be drastically reshaped. But for the better,

surely—for the better. I was God, and I could not make

mistakes.

Otherwise, why would you worship me?

I departed from the minds in the room, though I did

not summon anyone back to consciousness. I did not need

their help to command the tides and to grow storms in the

heavens—nor for the much broader changes I wished to

bring about in the world.

I settled down to bringing a new face to the Earth,

enjoying every moment of my godhood—perhaps too

well….

III

And there, in that hospital room in the upper floors of

the Artificial Creation complex, with the dead and bleed-

ing mutant form before me, I knew the greatest triumphs

of my entire life. I ranged far from those white walls,

though I never once rose from the chair in which I sat. I

flew over seas and continents without benefit of a body—

without even an analogue form—to contain my psychic

energies. Miracles were within my grasp now, and though

I did not change any water into wine or raise any men

from the dead, I did other things, yes, other things….

The first order of business, so far as I was concerned,

was to reach downward through the floors of the great

structure and locate that place where I had been born,

where plastic womb had contained me and where wired

uterus had spit me out. It was no sentimental journey, no

longing for a return to those cold mother walls, but the

bitter-sweet taste of a deeply abiding vengeance.

I sent my awareness drifting down through the layers of

the huge building, through plaster and lath, plastic and

steel, through electrical conduits and wads of fluffy in-

sulating material. I passed the radiating awareness of

other human beings, but did not stop to handle them just

yet, bent on the confrontation I had dreamed of for years.

Oedipal?

Not exactly. I did not want to kill my father and marry

my mother, merely to kill my mother and be free. Cer-

tainly, there was a quality of love in it too, but that was

easily overlooked.

I found the lowest two floors, where the paraphernalia

of the genetic engineers cored the walls like fungus, fila-

ments threaded through the plaster like disease worms.

Machines descended from the ceilings of the rooms, thrust

upward from the floors. There were blocks of data process-

ing computers, memory banks and calculating components

which handled everything from temperature regulation

to DNA-RNA balance in the chemical sperm and egg.

Along the walls and on various raised platforms around the

floor there were programming keyboards for the men and

women who maintained the delicacy of the computers’

decisions.

In every great chamber, the center of attention was the

womb itself. It was contained in a large, square glass tank

whose exterior walls were more than three inches thick.

Between these outer petitions and the meat of the nut,

there were thinner layers of grass along with fiberglass

wads of insulation. In the center were the nonconductive

plastic walls, cored with the miles of wires reporting

conditions back to the computers. There were electrode

nubbins there by the tens of thousands, and waldoes so

minuscule as to be unbelievable were doing impossibly

tiny things to impossibly tiny creations, spheres of cells

not yet remotely shaped like human beings.

Mother…

The womb, darkness, quietude, thrumming pulse of

hidden works felt more than heard …

There were more than eighty technicians and medical

attendants clustered in the rooms of the genetic engineer-

ing equipment, all of them busy. I reached out with my

godly esp and took control of every one of their minds.

Work ceased; conversation broke off in midsentence. I

directed them out of that place, upward through the

building to regions of safety.

I surveyed the place as a sense of power stirred in me

the like of which I had never experienced before. It was

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