A Darkness in my Soul by Dean R. Koontz

Why don’t I live in one, then? Why build a house by the

sea, set in its own isolation of pine trees? Well, there are

lots of reasons.

For instance:

Crime, it seems to me, is nothing more than a necessary

evil, an offshoot of freedom and liberty. When you give a

man a list of rights, things that he should expect to be able

to do according to his standing as a member in the human

community, you are providing the unscrupulous man with

a list to stretch to his own ends. You are giving the clever

man something to look over in search of loopholes. And, in

the end, you have criminals making the free-enterprise

system work for them, their way, as they understand it. So

you arrest them and you punish them, but you learn to

live with them. Unless you would prefer restricting those

liberties everyone enjoys. You could shorten the list of

rights or do away with it altogether, thus giving the

unscrupulous ones less to stretch, less things to find

loopholes in. Everyone suffers, of course, when the list is

destroyed. And the cleverest and most intelligent of the

unscrupulous manage to end up at the top of the pile

anyway—or maybe they were the ones who eliminated the

list of rights to begin with, in order to cut down on

competition from amateurish punks. They call themselves

“city government” and steal legally. And with their sur-

veillance of the corridors, their bugging of elevators and

escalators and pedways and stairs, their files on every resi-

dent, which grow thicker with data each year, the apart-

ment complexes do not foster liberty, but slowly absorb it

from their residents.

Pollution? Well, maybe I’ll die of lung cancer sooner

than a complex dweller. But I can breathe the smell of the

sea, the smell of wet earth after a rain, the ozone pro-

duced by lightning. My air has not been so filtered and

cleaned as to become flat and unexciting.

Inflation? Perhaps things are cheaper in the complexes,

and perhaps that’s because the companies really want to

give their residents a fair shake in every way possible. But

there is something frightening, to me at least, about depend-

ing on one conglomerate entity for your food, your drink,

your entertainment, your clothing, your necessities, and

your luxuries. I stopped being dependent on Harry, my

father image, by the time I was halfway through adoles-

cence. I don’t yearn to be fathered or mothered to death by

some team of accountants and cost-projecting computers.

A community sense of togetherness, they say, makes life

much more fun in the giant apartment structures. But I

don’t want to have to be friends with anyone merely

because I happen to live near them. I don’t enjoy the high

school rah-rah, go-team unison of small minds or the

brittle-fingered canasta desperation of old people seeking

companionship in their last days. Besides, last night, I saw

an example of that community togetherness which banded

the “innocent” citizens of that complex .across the street

into a spying, ruthless creature which could report neigh-

bors to the police to have them slaughtered. Community

togetherness can lead to a consensus outlook that seeks and

destroys any dissident element, no matter how small and

really harmless.

Thanks but no thanks.

I’ll take my sea.

And my pine trees.

And even my damned polluted air.

Her apartment was as it had been. It did not look as if

it had even been searched—a strange fact if they truly

had thought her involved with revolutionary elements. I

got some food in a plaza supermarket and returned to her

place, fixed myself a solid meal, and ate until my shriveled

stomach was somewhat back to normal size.

After that, I turned on the television and was instantly

glad I had taken so many precautions getting here. I had

driven to the airport, abandoned my hovercar, and had

brought my luggage back here on a bus. If I had not been

so quick and careful, I might now be jailed, for I was a

television star it seemed, my face a portrait on the wide-

angle tube.

On the news, they showed coppers at my house, looking

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